linkin me to you^

CHAPTER 2

2010-10-06T18:01:00.001+08:00

this blog shall be revived~ =D

alice's my love

2008-06-23T20:46:00.002+08:00

its such a joy listening to alicenine again~ i felt like.. everything i do right now... is worthed it for wats its worthed. i love alicenine!!!! i missed this uplifting feel... it feels like connecting with an old fren whom i have missed for so long!!! i m happy. truly am rite now... my loves~

2008-06-22T23:19:00.002+08:00

my fren recently ventured into online business.. this is a really cool website that he set up. kinda like amazon and all. but its more cool(coz its managed by my fren). coming from a design sense, the website is easy to navigate and u can get wat u are looking for quite easily. everything is so neat and tidy. tats really good when u are trying to search for something. and the best thing is... the price of the books are cheaper!!!! its relatively new. but give it a few good years or even months, i m sure, that place will be the second amazon~ only diff. its CHEAPER! and its definitely trustable.. coz i know the guy. and he's the type who is serious about being honest in watever he do! so yups! check out this place

http://www.opentrolley.com.sg

u can recommend it to your frens as well!!!

iloveyou

2007-12-09T02:58:00.000+08:00

today isssss... 9th dec 2007.... 7months have past... how time flies when u are having such fun and happiness with the person whom love and grow to "hate" some of his "disgusting" habits so much... lol... we really had so much fun...

i love my kitty too~ she gives off weird responses though....

me and him we travel....
(i m the one sitting right at the back..
he is sitting in front of me(who is facing the wrong side)... zzzzzz)

we share our sadness...

and our love for each other.... i love you deardear... happy 7th month anniversary~~~ =)

ZZZZZ

2007-11-23T23:26:00.000+08:00

i had a "haunting" dream last nite of certain someone... i shall not elaborate on it though... it is irrelevant and will not possibly happen in real life.. though i wun relish the thought of it REALLY happening... it would be hilarious.. hahah.. anyways... sorry for not updating as often as the rest of the ppl... i m simply either too busy with sch work or just too lazy to blog... there's really nth much for me to blog. i m a boring person. i guess tis post is really boring u out. shan't say anymore.. off to maple~ =))))

long overdue

2007-09-11T21:28:00.000+08:00

hey hey.. its been long time since i blogged. yeah!!! finally got my wireless adapter!!! as u can see, i m skipping on the grammers and stuff since i feeeling real lazy to type. haha. so probably this post the appearance of 'am', 'are', 'was' these kind of stuff is close to zeeero here. you dun get what i saying? neither do i..

anyways.. now is the HOLS!!!!! wOOOOOO! a cause for celebration.......

by...

1.sleeping at home 18 hrs a day....

2.staring at the telly watching lame shows...

3.staring at the comp screen hoping it turns into a telly to watch lame shows...

4.thinking of when to sleep, when to watch telly..

5.sleeping longer to have more dreams about traveling overseas(it happens to be the best/cheapest solution to make urself happy when you dun have the money to travel)

6.finally smthg different.. working my feet off at sakae.... when i m not sleeping or watching telly...

wat a happy occassion.

well.. its not entirely true.. hahah. i went out on some of the days when i m not "celebrating" my hols in the above 6 ways.. hehe. anyways. managed to catch some movies here and there.. namely.. Rush hours3, brave story and evan almightly... all of them quite nice.. hahah. wat can i say? i m not a movie critic so i shall speak in the views of an ordinary viewer that.. they kept me entertained... thats all altho i particularly like Rush hours 3 simply becoz of the french sister scene.. hahah.

anyways.. since everyone's blogging abt the Games Convention.. how can i miss out on it????? lol. my version's a bit shorter.. i din help out with the convention since i was celebrating my hols with way "number 6". but i went on the alst day which is the sunday 9 of sept to check things out. reached at ard 1 plus with JJ. we walked ard there and got some goodies.. decided not to queue at the Asiasoft goodie booth since it was crowded with ppl.. met ah long, alvin and bogard there after a while.. den we took some pics with some mascots..

so cute can!!! you cant even see its eyes.. haha..

saw the infamous "audition" dance.. haha. tried to take a video of them.. but it was too bright.. so no pics..
den we juz went ard signing up and registering for games...
it was quite an interesting day.. den we went to foodcourt and ate.. well.. juz ah long and bogard ate.. they bought from my fav stall at the foodcourt.. hahah.. i thot it was korean food for like a few months until that day i realised it was taiwan food. hahah. LAME-D... anyways ah long and bogard went back to the convention.. me and JJ left soon for dinner.. at XIN WANG! lol.

JJ tried to take a pic of me. i m fast enough to cover half of my face. darn. but still not fast enuff.

JJ looking really bored waiting for his food..

apparently we were so hungry that we gobbled up our food without realising that we haven take PICS of them!! lol.. so sorry.. our plates were as clean as the hospital floor.. but i managed to snap a few pics of what we had from the menu! heheh.

we did not forget to snap pics of the humongous "Triple Snow Ice" aka freaking big ice kachang with 3 flavours, mango, red bean and strawberry.. it was so Huge!

look at the size of that mountain compared to JJ's phone...

here's the aftermath... wow.. it was really very cold! we were freezing like crazy.. we were shivering and eating the ice at the same time.. so it was actually quite funny.. haha..

anyways.. went and walk ard a while before returning hm ard 9 pm... tats all i have for the moment.. too lazy to type anymore.. hehe..

Happy anni dear! =)

SP3

2007-08-13T15:08:00.000+08:00

yawns. in Q313 now. so boring. trying to do some 3d animation now. the file is so freaking. tink it will take like 10 days to render. hahah. now i m left with 3d animation and Studio Project 3. den FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! =) it feels good to be so near hols. hehe.

i miss you

2007-07-29T01:50:00.001+08:00

deardear went to malaysia today to send his grandparents home... juz less than 24 hours from hearing his voice and seeing him makes me feel really lonely.. i m trying to do my webdesign assignment.. but all i could tink of was him.. i really miss him.. i din know tat i was so attached to deardear such tat he's only away for less than one day and i m already missing him like so deeply.. at least i know something today.. almost felt a tear drop down when i said goodbye to him at the mrt station today... juz saw his back turned and ran to the next cabin(to join his parents and grandparents).. felt a tinge of sadness.. i held back my tears and told myself.. "its only for a while...".. i hate goodbyes... even if its only for a while.. juz like my senior.. both of us(me and my senior) dun like to say goodbye to something or someone we have grown emotionally attached to.. even if its only for a while.. i m missing his voice and his constant babblings... i miss you deardear.. are you sleeping well now? i shall be obedient and do my work... i m juz missing you so much...

i miss you deardear...

2007-05-07T10:32:00.000+08:00

having web design class rite now.. so boring.. i need sleeep.. chatted with ****** till 3 plus den with cyn till 6 am today while doing the web design assignment.. cannot make it liaox.. den bathed le den go school.. so tired... ahh.. brain fried le.. never sleep for the whole nite.. -_-"""" now slacking in lab.. later muz try to finish my 2d animation backgrd layout and character rotation and hopefully another 2 pages of drawing den i can sleep peacefully at nite tonite after watching desperate housewives! lol. alrites.. time to go.. and catch a wink.. =)

6a

2007-05-03T03:56:00.000+08:00

weee~ this is yesterday's posting... went out with keni, yusi, florence, janice... met at 530 at bugis den we went "miss clarity's cafe".. its a bimbotic cafe.. but i gotta say.. its really good! the food there is like so yummy.. and its student wallet friendly.. so tats the plus point.. the environment there is quite relaxing.. and the food serving is huge compared to some other restaurants... me, yusi, keni and jan met for dinner 1st.. den florence came along to meet us after our dinner.. after which we went minds cafe.. its quite fun.. i won the last game we played. which was interesting.. it has like king, thief and bishop tat kind of character and u are supposed to built building and collect golds to win the game.. haha. my gold got stolen in the 1st rd.. but i quickly gained back and won the game!. lol.. its so fun.. we saw our last time pri sch schoolmates there.. kinda funny.. lol.

anyways den we went home.. its been a really short but fun day.. i like meeting up like this.. especially with ppl u have not seen for a long time.. how time flies... we known each other for like 10 years.. me, yusi and flo 13 yeras! lol. the few of us still are the same 6A kids.. we hardly change at all.. lol. still as crappy as ever.. haha.. alrights.. here are some pics we took...

tats abt it.. shall go and do my 3d modeling for my car....

;)

wooo

2007-05-01T12:03:00.000+08:00

hey~ today is labour day! happy labour day to those who are still working on this day! lol. kidding~ was quite lazy to update my blog since i have fallen behind with so many posts... shall try my best to update! if not someone will nag me to~ lol.

here's the super long time ago event- movie at cine, turistas 18th April 2007.
we went after sch. most of the dmd ppl had their first ever JAP class~ wee~ so fun! we all agree its one of the best modules ever! lol. dmd ppl ended ard 2pm.. but we had to wait for another drawing lect at 3pm and joe's class to end oso... which was basically quite lame for the lect.. coz when we got there the lecturer was like "sorry you all will have to come back for the lect next week.. since we cant get any LT" -_-""" made us wait... but b4 the lect a few of us went club crawl.. and saw theo! so cute! she was wearing this kimono~

me and cute theo~

sakuran club at the club crawl and some of SIDM ogls...

lol. anyways we hang ard sch until 5pm or 6pm to wait for xuanhong.. den we went to cine to buy the tix for turistas.. trudy couldnt go since the movie was m-18.. trudy! dun be sad.. coz the movie's not really tat good anyway.. haha.. after tat we got some dinner at the food court at the basement..

okie.. the movie part was quite boring.. only know tat its kinda gross... meaning bloody and all.. ivan sure had a lot of "fun" watching the movie and joe's reaction during the movie.. lol. he was laffing abt it after the whole thing like how the movie was boring but how joe's actions were interesting and entertaining.. lol. ivan.. u are so bad.. lol. after movie we all went home.

here's some pics from tat day..

xuanhong checking his hair?

Xuanhong: yeah!
Guodong: ?????? -_-"

now you see joe..

now you dont..

kenny, ivan(evan) and me..

tix studs for the movie

joe, ivan(evan) and kenny: wooo.. look at the gal~

guodong, part of vincent and part of hanwee

reflection of us in the train.. taken by me..

taken by joejoe..

some random pics from 19th april~ theo was wearing this costume she borrowed from meiling aka chopstick sis. lol.

me, theo, xijun, keith and guodong.. wonder wat is guodong doing... he looks pervertic.. lol.

congzheng, xijun, theo, me and guodong
keith and leon.. this guodong ah.. lean so much.. we all gonna fall le la..

theo and me.. theo's pose is classic~

23rd april at food junction..
its funny how everyone says "lets go fj! they gonna close liaox.." lol. if u ask me last sem to go fj to have lunch i would most prob say "dunwan la~" coz i dun really like fj food since its like so small a portion and ex.. but for the past 2 weeks or so.. since its closing down.. i oso kinda miss it a bit.. hence the company for fj on its last "journey".. lol. here's some random pics of us in fj after our classes...

random pic of congzheng eating his burger..

joe.. and yongyi's hands..

yf and cyn..

leon aka sleep god..

yf and js..

cyn and meiling(chopstick sis)~

keith, bel and chopsticks sis..

my mogu bottle!(which i lost it and someone didnt help me bring hm.. :"( )

leon and me~

yongyi~

part of my palm and joejoe.. lol.

cyn~

me and joejoe~

again again~

anyways.. i defeated yf in tennis!!! lol. not real one.. the sony ericsson one.. lol!! yeah!!! he always say i lose to him! lol. this time i won!!! hahah! =)

we recently went to watch 200 punds beauty at grand cathay.. but i shall not post any pics up since cyn already posted on her's.. if u want the pics juz go to cyn's blog here.. the movie is quite nice.. its so funny and yet sad what a true reflection of this society we have now.. i like the songs inside the movie.. the actress was not bad.. overall i give this movie a 8/10.. thats quite high considered this plot has been quite overused by scriptwriters.. this movie is unique because it touches you and is close to heart..

alrights.. time to go get ready and meet keni, flo they all... haven been seeing them for a long time.. wee~ hopefully i'll have some photos to post up later~ =))

ただ、君を愛してる, あなたがくれた幸せよ .

;)

nth.

2007-04-24T10:15:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. shall quickly make a quick post.. lol. these few days haven been posting often due to the state of my ever PMS-ing comp. firstly it was a lame virus(i got rid of tat) and now its some svchost.exe problem(still trying to fix it).. aiyaa.. whyyyyy.. my dear dear comp... why are you like tat????????????
-_-"""""""""""""""""""""""

anyways.. shall post stuff abt XX's ROM... it was some time back.. 13th april 2007.. congrats to her.. she found her destiny.. it was quite sweet when they exchanged their vows.. she looked so blessed.. lol.. i guessed this kinda of things juz turns out this way.. haha.. anyway i went the ROM after the OGL chalet.. so can tell that i m quite shagged.. haha. but anyways until i get more photos from joe for the other stuff.. this is all i have at the moment...

quite candid shot of me XX and Jas

alrites.. gotta go sch soon to finish up my sketchbook! ;)

weee~

2007-04-17T00:49:00.000+08:00

today i won. ivan lost. haha. anyways. had a day out today. went sch at 8am. i tink i said that juz now.

i went for lunch at 1pm. south canteen. finally had yong tau foo after so many days..(1 and a half months to be exact).. it was great.. den after which we went to bugis to look for conte crayons which unfortunately was not available... here are some photos which i took using joe's hp..

close up of leon..

me and trudy...

joe joe.

zijun and me... :)

leon and cyn at the stall..

leon and me waiting for yong tau foo in the queue..

cyn and me while waiting for our yong tau foo!

at bras barsah... we didnt get what we wanted.. slacking ard..

scary head... tat seems to be looking at you when u stand near it..

random..

joe: handbag, sling or backpack? lol.

at bugis macs..

bugis macs..

random..

me and joejoe..

jinglong the golden dragon and me..

ivan and me..

joe doing the 5 fingers(palm) pose..

doubled.. 2 hands pose..

me and joe once again..

(didnt like the earlier one with joe coz it was too dark. if u look closely, i edited the brightness using photoshop for the other pic with joe.)

jinglong and ivan pretending to be nonchalant and asleep while i m hiding in the back..

one last grp photo without ivan.. he didnt want to be in the pic...

well.. then we all went home.. really tired and all.. reached home bathed and napped for 3 hours.. woke up at 11pm.. crap.. channel 5 changed the timing for desperate housewives YET AGAIN.. in the end i missed it since it was from 10pm... seriously.. some ppl shud juz make up their mind and fix stuff the way they shud be.. hope they are looking at this.. wow. i spent 4 hours trying to get this post up.. becoz of the uploading of photos.. i think i will stick back to the conventional way of uploading to external sources then link them here.. its so much faster than waiting for blogger to upload them.. not tat i m saying blogger is not good... juz tat.. it can be improved on... haha.. yups.. woo. its 4.30am.. time to finish up!

gonna go sch tml ard 1230pm to do certain stuff like having lunch.. buying sketchbook and sharpening the conte..

time to go! ;)

webby

2007-04-16T11:45:00.000+08:00

in sch lab Q313 now. juz had web design tut. it was relatively fun. kinda useful for me since i have a blog to maintain. htmls and all.. they looked like one whole big chuck of ^&%^#^@#.... before but now its not THAT bad...

anyways. ivan was late today.. supposed to reached Blk L at 755am but he was still on bus.. expected it.. haha. so we actually didnt know who won the "bet".. but i figured it shud be me. lol. he msged to say he wants to "jump" from blk L.. lol. because of some "certain reasons" .. sorry.. shud be some "certain lame reasons".. lol.

waiting for the 1pm ppl to end their class to go for lunch.. kk... gotta scram from this lab.. the ppl from the next lessons are filling in.

once again, i won. ;)

logical mah?

2007-04-16T00:12:00.001+08:00

ivan says he's very logical and he got good instinct..

i dont tink so.. ;)

part 2

2007-04-15T23:51:00.000+08:00

now ivan says he will win.

i doubt so. lol. ;)

the bet.

2007-04-15T23:47:00.000+08:00

now i m talking to ivan over phone. he says we shall have a bet tml.. see who wakes up earlier to wake each other up 1st by smsing each other after 7am. lame-d. den we meeting at blk L at 755am sharp to see who's sms is faster. lol. lame-d2.

i will win. lol. ;)

OGL camp day 2

2007-03-28T01:44:00.000+08:00

hey... 2nd day of OGL camp.. wow.. i can say its really amazing.... ly... TIRING.... everyone is completely shagged by the end of the day.. feeling really tired and sticky... and smelly... haha..

morning started out with bouncing balls within the circle we formed.. it was chaotic... haha.. balls flying everywhere.. it was quite comical though.. den came the crossing of the poison river.. using 3 chairs... to transport at least like 50 metres across the place... not touching the grd and needing to restart every single time we make a mistake.. it was tiring!!!!... we restarted 2 times.. but it was alrite.. at least it was team bonding and fun.. haha. i muz be crazy to think tat...

anyway.. came lunch... den somemore activity which involves eating biscuits, bouncing pingpong, skipping rope, some tower building blocks, throwing a ball into a pail, blowing a ball between 2 obstacles, drinking 7up and using rope to transport a ball back.. everybody were running ard doing these things.. i gotta say the eating and drinking part though sounded easy.. it wasnt.. it was really hard to swallow.. the biscuits were really dry like powder... but we managed to get 1st for this activity which was not bad... den treasure hunt.. i really sux at charades... guessing them and acting them.. neither is good for me.. haha. after guessing the movie title.. we are supposed to find the cards that were placed/hidden ard the few blks.. and ans the qns on them.. soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tiring.. it was horrendously energy draining.. we ran all over the place.. they hid them in really weird places... like..underneath a tv rack, behind a hanging direction sign and on the ceiling... there's lots more but i m very seriously tired to type anymore.. so i shall summarise... after which we came in second..

we had dinner as a grp den played some maze/memory/luck game called king Solomon.. it was fun as usual but most were really tired and were finding it quite hard to concentrate and focus on the game.. we managed to get by it after a while.. den came feedback where we had to write our name on a card and the score we think we did for this camp as a leader? team member? not sure.. anyways.. me and vincent agreed upon "8" for ourselves.. since there wasnt any decimals allowed.. we passed it ard for everyone else to feedback on... i thot xuanhong would get like 9s or 10s or at least an 8.. but.. apparently some ppl "hate" him.. in a joking sense.. haha. coz some ppl wrote 5/6 lol.. we din know who they are though.. me and vincent were juz bewildered by xuanhong's score.. haha. i gave 9 i tink.. i thot he stood up quite a number of times... as someone who can lead.. but.. this is juz for fun for guess.. i shall not disclose my score.. juz that avg out its in the 8s... i shud have given vincent 1 more point den he will get a 9 avg out.... haha. alrites.. tml is the last day of OGL camp.. kinda dunwan it to end so fast.. i can seriously lose weight with more days of physically challenging activities like this.. haha. alrites.. time to catch some wink!

OGL camp.

2007-03-27T01:59:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. today is the first day of OGL camp. its kinda fun. i can tell that most of the ppl in the group are kinda enjoying the camp.. which is good. its really funny. "cannot touch"!!! hahah. anyways i got posted to animation track with my open as "story" track... i m alrite. i liked it.. haha.. tml is day 2 of the OGL camp. and i tink its gonna be great too.. =) alrites.. better go catch some wink .. its gonna be a long day tml...

nitex.

lamed

2007-01-26T17:08:00.000+08:00

this is dumb. so lame. he new blogger crap. now i cant access my other blog. lamed

results.

2006-09-20T14:14:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. i juz got the results for this semster. its okie.. but not fantastic.. it went over 3. but less than 3.5.. but i got a freaking C! lol. i tink it was because i din hand in the work for her to see. haha. blame myself. hmmm.. gotta work harder next sem.. no more last min work.. i got so sick of tat!! lol. its so stressful to do last min work.. i shall stop torturing myself.. haha. anyway for the coming few days i will be really busy.. working non stop.. haha. i m gonna clock 32.5 hours of work until sunday! wooo.. gonna build up my stamina! haha. =)))

nao noww

2006-09-13T15:25:00.000+08:00

Yeah!!!! I dreamt of Nao last night!!!! yeahhhhh...

hehehe. *HAPPY*

look how cute his bbq set is...

heheh. nao is forever hungry and playful! i like~ =)))

weeee~ nao nao nao... =)))))

Saga and my hair.

2006-09-12T16:48:00.000+08:00

hahah. been dabbing in wallpapers for a while.. nth to do... life without school is utterly boring!!! mundane~ all i do every single day is wake up, read newspaper, eat, watch tv, go online, sleep, wake up have dinner. if not, one of the activities is replaced by work... den sleep, and another day! i need to do SOMETHING! arrghhh.. i cleaned up my room.. and now there's nth for me to do...

anyways, the wallpaper is Saga from alice nine... haha. i think he's really cool. hahah. like duh~ i like his hair!!! haha. gotta cut my hair soon(smthg which i have been rumbling and planning for a few months)... i dun tink it will be like saga's hair though. too troublesome to maintain... look at the straight hair.. i will have to straighten my hair every morning!!! and spike it? lol. too much trouble.. though i will consider cutting my hair short.. dun really like long hair.. too lazy to maintain.. hahah!.. alrights.. gotta go cook and prepare for work! be back later~~~~

=)))))

p.s sorry about the tacky title for this post. can't tink of any... haha!

Saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaagaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

BACK!!! with miyavi~

2006-08-15T07:15:00.000+08:00

hmmm... the blog is up and running again!!! due to my non sleepy self.. its 711am in the morning and i haven sleep for the whole nite.. haha. so many things to say... slowly one by one... i shall update slowly... hahah.. in the mean time.. this is the current situation....

I LOVE MIYAVI!!!!!

dont ask me why... i juz like him. his singing is not tat fab.. but his personality and character is so interesting... he simply rocks my world.. love miyavi~~~~
haha.. i m currently stuck to listening to Jpop and Jrock.. i listen to them most of the time... my current craze are like gackt, hyde (L'Arc~en~ciel), Arashi, Alice Nine and Orange Range.. i love jap songs! haha.. and most importantly...

I LOVE MIYAVI!!! hahah. i m going nuts... maybe its the lack of sleeep... so i shall go off now.. shall post later in the day...

weeee

2006-03-30T21:54:00.000+08:00

haha. juz returned from sch! wooo.. nope. not cj or sn. its nyp! haha. juz went for the orientation today which started on wed. its been fun to a certain extent. quite interesting. tml's the last day. and we are gonna have a skit presentation. not gonna devulge any plot secrets here! juz tat its gonna be a blast! haha. sure to laff our heads off! haha. dmd grp 5!

sigh.. now dunno whether to stay on in nyp or go to lasalle....
was really on abt going lasalle... but this place's alright too.. tml having lasalle interview.. dunno whether i shud go anot.. ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!...

HOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!?!?!?!

lately...

2006-03-16T22:09:00.000+08:00

alright. wat a long time since my last post. i juz quit sakae sushi as full time staff. its been fun there. gonna go back there as part time staff. anyway. thats not the main point of the creation of this post. i had a dream last nite.

a nightmare.

it still gives me the shudders now as i m typing it.

Been.........
Ever a.......
Nightmare

it ended two years ago. we ended two years ago. wat a memory it was. its supposed to be long gone. long long long goneeeeeeeeeee like the wind tat passes thru the field 2 years ago. long gone. disappeared. at least tats wat i thot. anyway after i woke up this morning i thot back.. i din do anything in particular special or anything during the day tat would trigger anything tat will lead dreaming of you . i went orchard den went for work as usual, came home, watch tv and read my daily lfc football doses and den i went to sleep. so normal. but my dream wasn't anything near tat. i had u in my dream. i thot "why" in my dream.. like a million questions. i couldn't find a reason. u were there. its a dream. yet it seemed so real. i have always been able to control the way my dream works out(always in my favour of coz).. but no. u controlled it. right from the very start. it din feel like my dream at all. altho there were a lot of other ppl there in my dream. u were the one tat keep on popping out. and this time u were not alone. u were with her. i dun like her. juz like in reality. it din feel good of coz. it was unpleasant looking at u with her in my dream. like a million disappointments. isn't the dream a place where things work out differently? its my dream! i want a happy ending! and all i got from this dream was sadness, hurt, tears and anger.. two of u so lovey dovey... juz like trying to spite me.. i could still remember me running and escaping away from u two.. running running... past the corridors... trees.. but in my mind.. it was all you. u appeared once again. this was a burden. and the fact tat u didn't care in the dream was telling me wat a reflect of the reality it really was.

i woke up feeling lost. i found myself staring into space. why? why?... i left you with my memories far far away two years ago.. i had forgotten abt u. i was moving on well with my life. i din care abt you anymore. at least tats wat i thot. was a part of me thinking of you all the time? somehow i wasn't aware of this. all these dreams abt you every now and then makes the memories ever so fresh.. as if they were yesterday.... u are like a virus tat cannot be deleted, always under quarrantine.. every once in a while u will come out and make me sick. hurt and confused.. no doubt i missed u very much. i want u back.. but wats is over its over. there's no chance of me getting u back.. so pls.. stay under quarrantine.. don't ever come out. let my mind stay free of you. i dun want to stay in pain. or as my restaurant manager jokingly said "get lost!" only this time its not a joke.

i dun like you anymore. i dun like you anymore. i dun like you anymore.

wat a lie.

juz stay where you are.

storyteller.

2005-12-17T02:03:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. due to the request of my favourite storyteller.

Here's a declaration!

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.::.engHong::.. - thisismylegacy.blogspot.com says:
my sexual orientation is fine

::.engHong::.. - thisismylegacy.blogspot.com says:
I'M NOT GAY

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thank you Eng Hong. for your honest declaration. now we all know.

the aftermath.

2005-12-14T22:33:00.000+08:00

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO......

I MISS BAND FEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I MISS BARNES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I MISS FLUTE SECTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sob sob. i m suffering from band fest withdrawal symptoms.........
the concert was over in a flash. so fast. the few hours building up to the concert was really nice. we played games took lotsa photos and i can say tat i know quite a number of ppl better after the whole nite. yup... i left the concert hall happy, satistfied. but mostly really sad... coz.. no more band fest!!!... juz getting to know some ppl better, den band fest is over... arghhh.. anyways... lets keep it short... and let the pics do the talking....

BAND FEST 2005

the official booklet.

Barnes list!

Barnes Resting room! only for girls!

Right side of the room....

Left....

Left back of the room...

Right back of the room...

cool shot! i m so pro to capture tat split split split second of the red light blinking..

me and the NJ gals.....

poor little weixin too exhausted thinking too much about *ahem*

Joy and Eunice taking some time and erm their shoes off as well...

Gals from barnessss..........

The AC gals and me....

the Barnes guys enjoying a game of "thumbs game"

CJ Barnes! Back row(left to right): Melvin, weixin, angel, Jon
Front row: sara, me and wenseng

Daniel and yongteng doing their forfeit! Smile! and waltz!

Barnes Flute section!!!
Front row(L to R): Huimin, weixin
Second row: Me, Joy, Yan Ping, Eunice
Back Row: Gab, Rui Jie, Weeyong, Paul, Dan

Us with the chaperones.

Us with Samuel.

Me and Raymond!

Me and the ever scandalous BABA!

LiLin and me.

Weixin, me and Ellyne...

Me and raywne....

Huimin, dan and yang lei acting sad(dumb)...

Me and idiotic ketsu!

Me and the Storyteller(enghong)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

woooo!! Dr Lee!!

Me and Long2 Er(Dragon)...

me and small kiddo, tim chua... haha..

GASP! its Darren sim with me! Weixin's Ahem!!! haha.

Ketsu acting bored as usual~~~~

Haha. alright. tats most of the photos. i shall post up the rest when i have time... till then...

BAND FEST ROCKS! and
BARNES ROCKS!

band fest 2005

2005-12-10T22:54:00.000+08:00

alright.. far too long. gonna give this a quick update.

finished A levels. comments. horrendous. terrible. freaking weird. screwed.

slacked for a very long time. played games. FFX-2 and The Sims2.

looked for job. got hired by sakae by stroke of luck. working near home. great.

currently in band fest 2005.
main focus of update.

band fest 2005. yup. i joined. i m in band barnes! haha. we are playing ithaca, suite of old american dances and the hunchback of notre dame. mr darren sim( a cutie according to WX ) is our resident conductor. Dr lee is conducting for ithaca.

ithaca was scary. the running notes and everything. it doesn't help that i m so accustomed to using the B flat thumb key instead of the F key button to play B flat. this piece requires the E minor scale which unfortunately do not favour my usual style of running up and down the scale. i had to switched quickly from B flat to B and then back to B flat then continue up the scale. totally screwed it up when Dr Lee did an individual going through of each section. i played wrongly and it was really bad. my thumb had become really sticky by the time we played tat piece and hence the difficulty of switching between the buttons increased. i totally missed playing those few bars. hence i came up with a quick solution to a very "sticky" problem. i wrapped cigarette paper( used to dry the moist button pads) ard my left thumb den fastened it using my rubber band. the problem was instantly solved. i could run through the few bars of running notes with much ease, altho i have to admit i still have some practice to do. tml is a good day to do so. and for the acutal day i would most prob juz stick on a plaster of either plastic or cloth. at least it would look reasonable.

American dances and notre dame are fun! american dances is very light and cheesy. makes u wanna dance! haha. while notre dame has a very sweet melody and some nice ballads-like passages. overall, the pieces we have are very fun and exciting.

my section. can say its filled with diff kinds of ppl. which i m glad for. altho presently i have only talked to daniel, paul, huimin, joy and yan ping (no such need to mention Weixin.. since i speak to her since dunno when! haha.).. while i have quite little contact with eunice(speak to her on a very basis level and would like to get to know her better) and the SRJC guy and the JJC guy.(sorry! i din really catch both of ur names, i shall however get to know them on monday!) i can say that they are really very fun filled ppl. juz as wat happened during today's band prac... eg...

(roughly 3 plus pm)
dan(whispers): i m gonna trick them(the rest of the section) to raise up their flute earlier by raising mine earlier by a few bars. so they will follow me! (hehehe)

me: ....... (i was having rest during the piece)

it happens so tat previously the section sometimes did not count the number of bars of rest.. so when dan was warming his flute, the section would raise up their flute thinking tat its time to play when its actually not the case..

so the whole prac i saw dan lifting up his flute every now in an attempt to throw the whole section off. when we are having rest he would raise up and upon notices tat no one fall for it then he would quickly put it down. he's probably juz too bored. and sleepy. so he needed some entertainment. rest he raise up. other ppl's solo he also raise up. nth going on also raise up. the sight was really comical. but apparently the whole section was either not on alert mode to notice dan raising his flute up or they were studiously counting the bars, coz most of dan's attempts failed quite badly. except for one when he raised it up early to play the last few bars of american dances movt 4.. the rest of the 1st flutes were caught unaware and didn't even seemed to know that they were supposed to play until dan played like 2 or 3 bars of the passage. so it ended up dan playing the passage mostly by himself. altho his attempt to trick them to raise their flutes up early failed, he managed to fool them in another way. haha. congrats to dan. and today during prac he told me he's thinking of cutting his hair. and said tat he's scared it would come out weird. so i have smthg for u dan, "Good Luck!" haha.

the rest of the scetion are also pretty funny and friendly as well. went for lunch today with joy, weixin and yan ping at the other canteen. had fun speaking, chatting and gossiping with the three of them. really had fun with the Barnes band. i can't wait for Monday's concert to come! yeah!!!... haha..

BARNES FLUTE SECTION 2005(Photo Courtesy of Mr Darren Sim)

Clockwise from left: me, dan, paul SRJC guy, eunice, weixin, huimin, JJC guy, yan ping, joy (oboe: gabriel, bassoon: dawn)

even though i feel like my energy is totally depleted... with the early morning wake ups and long travelling and long days...

Band fest ROCK!!!!!!!!! haha.

**ppl who wants the tixs, pls contact me(juz leave a tag b4 sunday 11th dec 2005 1159pm). its 11 bucks per tix. at Esplanade 12th Dec 2005. 730pm.

Repertoire
Yagisawa - A Symphonic Tone Poem "And then the ocean glows"
Appermont - Noah's Ark
R.V. Williams - Sea Songs

Ticheli - American Elegy
Ketslbey - In a Persian Market
Smith - Emperata Overture
Hisaishi - Howl's Moving Castle
Texidor - Amparito Roca

break

RW Smith - Ithaca from the Odyssey (Symphony No.2)
Bennett - Suite of Old American Dances mvt 1 and 4
Menken - The Hunchback of Notre Dame

Reed - Alleluia Laudamus Te
Tatebe - Suite on Celtic Folk Songs
Amano - Festival March
Arnold - 'Happy Ending' from the Inn of Sixth Happiness

souriez for another time not at sn but at cj...

2005-10-13T21:20:00.000+08:00

hmmm... very fast posting again. today is a special day.

its GRAD DAY!

weee!!! i m outta CJ!!!!

welll... at least maybe not till As are over... today reached sch juz on time as usual.. was toying with the idea of having a last possible detention i m gonna ever have in my whole life.. but nahh.. not even a single teacher was there to catch ppl. haha. did the class poster till 930am. was pleasantly surprised tat the whole class was quite enthu in decorating the poster. it was fun. i guessed. 1st time in a very long time where i can see the whole class doing something together. (shall post a pic of it when i get hold of the pic soon.)

anyway after tat we went to PAC for the ceremony. it was so relaxing sitting there. the seat so comfy~~~ so tempted to sleep there.. the 1st part of the ceremony was quite boring.. till bro paul's speech which was quite interesting. den the highlight shud be the video montage. crap la. they used the j1 second orientation dance clip AGAIN. i got a sinking feeling when i saw someone familiar on the screen.. SO BIG SOMEMORE!!!!!! my toot hairstyle wearing SN pinafore dancing with donovan. crap la. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!.
i shall "ahh" for another 5 lines. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhh
hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!
AHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
AHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
AHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!.
alright.. eyes getting blurred? me too. anyway. its time to stun tat clip and burn it. it shall never see the light of the earth ever!!! alright. i m overreacting. haha. relax. anyway it was cool bringing back corny memory looking at the video.. i totally forgot abt the dance clip till today. haha.. anyway. din get my folder. have to return to sch another day to pay my freaking sch fees den can get my folder.. sigh...

anyway.. went out with the red lotus gang after sch.. quite surprsied... but it was fun.. went cartel to have lunch.... the whole(almost) 2T32 was there. crapped alot with the lotus gang. i felt like i was attending the "lunchtime talkshow with the red lotus gang".. haha
here's how a typical conv goes between the lotus gang..

Ally: hey! pam gek! how's blah blah blah....
(soon enuff Pg will be at ally's throat)
Ally: aHHhhhhhHhh!!! helppppp!!!
tiff comments... PG turns over to tiff..
tiff: dun touch me!!! ahhhhhh!!!
Guanyingma: wah lauuuuuu.... really wahhh... (sensing PG coming over...) OK! OK! i keep quiet...

haha. its really funny... as their guest.. i really laff one whole day! the food was okie and reasonable for a nett price of $7.50... but perhaps it was a bit too filling with the total of a main course, soup of the day, drink, ice cream and free flow bread. and it doesn't help tat i ate at the reception after the Grad ceremony.... man... haha.. anyway.. went home after tat... can say today was an unforgettable day... the outing with red lotus gang was fun.. but it was a pity it was till so late tat i get to know them better now.. but nevertheless... it happened... yup..

shall go catch "child of our time".. ciao..

IN VERITATE ET CARITATE..

nth much but a long blog abt mycrappy week

2005-10-12T21:46:00.000+08:00

hmmm. okie. lets blog abt the past week. which is the week of 5th oct to 12th oct.

went to DXO on fri night AGAIN. unbelievable. but yup. its DXO again. i went there for a reason. a good enuff reason to make me return to that place. the world renowned flautist, ron korb was in town! haha. guess not many ppl know who he is. i only knew of him on wed when i was feeling bored and hence listened to 96.3fm on my zen micro. they were giving passes to his showcase. so i juz smsed the ans to the qn to 96.3fm. and who the heck knows, the following day they called me up. so here i go. went with shuyu and her frens sean and edwin to DXO. the showcase was good. but the place wasn't. the only consolation to going to DXO was getting to take photos with alan tern! he's so cute and seriously nice!!!!!! he's tat guy who acts as the bad guy in the show portrait of home II.. he looks old there with his laopok hair style.. but seriously! he's so much cuter in real life! haha.

anyway. we got bored at DXO. so we took bus(how fashionable) down to orchard. went to chinablack. sean paid for the cover charges. which was cool. haha. both times clubbing with everything paid for. is tat lucky or wat??. haha. anyway. chinablack was good. more happening. much more. so peeps. unless you have a really good valid reason to... don't visit the place which i mentioned in the previous posts. saw a few ppl i knew at cb. pri schoolmate and darren(unless i m wrong) there. called their names but the place was freaking noisy. saw jeff from "eye for a guy 2".. he was flirting with frens of sean.. notti notti. anyway. it was fun there i guess.. stayed there till 3am. went down to macs at lido den saw few police cars arriving at pacific. phew! luckily we came down before they came. i wondered why they were there in the 1st place. to catch underages? maybe. i saw 2 boys who looked suspiciously like 13-14 year olds. crap man. they are really young! anyway took nightrider home. reached home at 430am. and slept ard 5.. feeling really tiredddddd.. slept till 940am den rushed to sch for open house/tuning in. feets were still sore from the bloody heels.

tuning in was crap! as in crappily full! so many ppl turned up! good job to the j1s! it felt really funny to watch the abnd and the sec4s play "with heart and voice" esp the flutes. saw how they panted and gasped for air playing the last 2 pages of the piece. haha. paul goh as usual didn't turn up(overslept), gareth, john and a few others turned up. my son turned up later than expected. but i was really glad to see him there! (which i later found out from vig that my son asked for me early in the morning, presumingly i was still either sleeping or on the way to sch).. but my bloody direct sn juniors didn't turn up!!!! arghhhh... i blamed baba. hahah. juz kidding. after the tuning in. had lunch with steph and a few of the sec4s den saw jacky in the canteen. went ard the sch with gareth, john, jacky and vig. they went fooling ard in the new gym. boys will always be boys. den soon after we left to go town. went scotts to eat. den went cuppage to play pool(thx pavin! for your "amazing" t-shirts with the sch logos!)... dropped the idea of watching Goal! den went PS to have dinner. went home soon after den reached home at 10. so freakingly tired.

slept till 11am den went to pan pacific for some company 3rd anniversary ball. reached ard 1pm. 2 hours late. but heck. i was totally dead tired. i was smiling to most of the ppl there as a form of acknowledgement den i juz smiled at one gal den she smiled back. it was only after a while den i realised it was yvonne lim. she look really skinny. how amazing! i managed to be cool and smiled at a celeb with out going gaga after them! haha. wanted to take photo with her though. too bad. din bring any form of camera device. at tat point i was thinking "crap la! if those 2 bloody aunties didn't steal my motorola hp, i can like take dunno how many pics with her la! and my pics with alan tern would turn out nicer with flash la! ^&%^$#*&*(&^!" the ceremony was quite boring. i missed the winter hair collections runway. crap. the only good thing is that the buffet was good! yummy! choc mousse! soooo nice! i got greedy and now i m down with a lousy sore throat and a tired self.

apparently i didn't recover from the partying and lack of sleep and hence it has take its toil on me. went sch on mon but rested at home on tues. couldn't do anything at all! tues was basically a unsuccessful attempt of me trying to stay awake to do stuff. and yet falling back into the bed every now and then. tired man. went school today. nth much. did spring cleaning in class. and then TATs when i finally realised that my cj life is over. tomorrow is grad day. i hope that everyone will put aside their differences and allow ourselves to bond together for one last time.. and leaves us with a happy memory....

what a long blog... time to sleep... oh ya.. i m down with a cough too!.......

lfc and gp

2005-10-03T19:37:00.000+08:00

juz a typical blog.nothing much in school happened. still feeling drowsy from the medicine. took down the story of holiland since it seems weird. at least for now. i will consider putting the post back up with hopefully a complete ending. anyway 2 things i would like to comment abt today.

1stly.
my GP results. i seemed to be losing touch from speaking and writing english. **as if i m in a phrase of turning back into a cavewoman, where i would communicate via funny noises like "ehhhh uhmm ahhhh"and hard to decipher actions and half expecting ppl to understand me fully.** i have a huge problem of having really long sentences that doesn't end eg ** that 37 words in a sentence for you. but that is not so extreme. i have NO idea at all since when my sentence stretches so long till it reaches jurong west from changi. so since i m turning into a cavewoman, i shall start my sentences like "ahhh emmmm hmmm orrr ahhh orrr hmmm hehhh, hmmm ermmm arhhhhh weeee urghhhh naaaa nooooo hmmmm ehhhh ahhhhhh hmmm ehhh ohhhh errrrrr ahhhhh." understood? nope? neither do i.. my GP essays once a respectable C, with no particular reason morphed into a freaking O, whats happening?!?!?! i shall start going back to the days where i have a no nonsense book with perfect words and grammer in my bag where i would flipped it out every once and then.

2ndly,
as if today wasn't a bad day enough. liverpoolfc lost to chelsea last night 1-4. all hopes were lost when joe cole smashed in the 3rd one. i was as shattered as the lfc players were feeling on the field. i m sure the millions of liverpudlians felt the same way as i did. but kudos to lfc for fighting the match with their inspiring captain, steven gerrard, for his goal was really superb! though this is a defeat that we liverpudlians were made sick to the stomach, but i m sure that liverpoolfc will come out from this stronger and a better team. the faith and hope in our team is what will bring lfc to greater glory. the belief. the loyalty. and as in www.liverpoolfc.tv ....

"Liverpool may have lost today, but they have no reason to be too down. Even Chelsea themselves should endorse that. "

we sang and will continue to sing in one united voice "you'll never walk alone...."

--est. 1892 Liverpoolfc.--

the legend of holiland

2005-09-27T20:24:00.000+08:00

today, mings the lousy storyteller is gonna narrate 2 stories which are merged together though they don't exactly mean the same thing. confused? read on. (thou shalt not use any form of GP in these stories..)

Chapter I - broken joys of holiland
once a upon time, in the land of the holiland there lived a group of birds who by chance came together and decided to live together for a few hours at the break of dawn before breaking free a few hours later back to their own nests.

all was swell and well and peace prevail throughout the warm summer land. all the birds enjoyed the company of each other and bonds were strong they even arranged for flying sessions together after the daily hours in holiland.

that was only for a few weeks. soon, one of the birds, a peacock, poppy showed her true self of being arrogant and thought that her feathers were the prettiest. she would brush up to birds whom she thought were of use to her. she would manipulate others. Alas, birds of the same character repel, poppy soon found herself an enemy, a high flying eagle, Runice. Runice wants to be the head of the flock as she has the ability to fly high while Poppy feels that she should lead coz she has the most colourful feathers. but poppy was afraid of tunice as she knew that Runice has the power to crush her with her mighty claws and Runice had the power to tell all the other birds to dislike Poppy as Runice had known Poppy since their younger days in another land and held the truth about poppy's real self so she remained a little low key but not without spreading untruths and lies about the birds whom she thought were threatening to her amongst them was a newly joined talented and sociable parrot, Jole who could speak several languages and make friends easily. poppy was jealous of the parrot and was afraid that her friends would flock to jole and hence poppy backstabbed jole while maintaining a friendly front in front of jole. little did jole know that the rest were soon shunning her for the lies that poppy told. but soon enough the flock realised the untruths.

the whole group of birds soon did not have any peace in their holiland, schemers and liars appeared in the flock with every bird pitting against each other. the flock of birds separated into 3 flocks. no one could enjoy the peace and joy as a group anymore due to some selfish birds. tension arose on some occassions and one of the birds, a hawk, maurice couldn't stand the way poppy acts and hence picked on poppy, criticising poppy for her behaviour. poppy was upset and cried and the rest of the female flocks pity poppy and hence sided with her and blamed maurice even though some of the female birds didn't like poppy. poppy was happy that the female birds sided with her but in her petty heart she planned on revenge against maurice. not much happened for the rest of the autumn and winter as the birds went busy preparing for winter. a few of the birds went far far away in search of a better land.

Chapter II - lasting memory that haunts holiland.
spring soon came, all was well and it seemed like peace was all around again. summer came and went. quickly as the wind. and as it seemed peace never lasts for long. new trouble brewed again.

poppy didn't get enough of being the arrogant and attention seeking peacock, she stepped up her actions. by now, jole had knew of poppy's disgusting character behind that fake smile and poppy had also knew that jole has discovered that poppy had been exposed, so she went all out to be mean to jole. poppy would pretend to know-it-all and purposely snatch to answer all the questions that birds asked jole to solve and she would pretend to solve and when she doesn't know the answer, she would give a loud whine and struts away proudly as if nothing had happened. she would also criticise jole's favourite flock of birds competing in the game of "catch the worm" when she didn't even follow the game or have any basic knowledge of the game. that made jole very angry as she knows that poppy did it on purpose but she pities poppy as she realised that poppy was in fact embarassing herself when she brainlessly uttered nonsense to everyone and yet thinking that she is very clever.

new trouble appears after another. Coey, Runice, kiki, Yove, Olie, Maurice and Dyle a flock of birds with strong friendship and always share their joy amongst each other, under pressure from the coming winter. relationships were strained and Maurice had an argument with Runice. and soon the flock drifted into two, Maurice and Dyle, Runice and the rest one flock. Coey, a tiny humming bird decided to be neutral, but the rest of Runice's flock thought that Coey had betrayed them by not joining their flock and hence told the rest of the flock to ignore Coey. Coey, a harmless humming bird soon became lonely after being abandoned by Runice, her closest friend of many years. Coey was obviously hurt and sad but she was powerless to change anything. Maurice saw that and comforted Coey and together with Dyle, they formed their new flock. Runice and Yove upon seeing that, was further convinced that Coey had betrayed them, when in fact they were the ones who had abandoned Coey. Under pressure from Runice and Yove, kiki and olie who in their hearts wishes to communicate with Coey, were restrained from doing so.

While all that happened, Poppy had been eyeing the discord, decides to appear to be concerned about the relationship happening between Maurice's and Runice's flock. she started adding trouble to the already strained ties by taking the side of Runice's flock and offers to rearrange the flying patterns of the flocks flying formation. with that, she dropped all the chances of a possible peace agreement between the two flocks. Making use of the chance, Poppy can get into Runice's favour and at the same time take revenge on Maurice by setting them against each other. and by the cunning and evil manipulative actions of Poppy, Coey suffers the most as she flies in silence all the time, her cheerful smile was no longer there.

the story has yet come to an end, an absolution has yet to be resolved. but hopefully, the ending of the story will go something like "and they flew happily ever after..."

but crap. what is the moral of the story?

....some birds are scheming even though they have got brains the size of a pea.

52 days till yume no tokou....

nuts.

2005-09-25T19:39:00.000+08:00

the time i m typing this is actually 930pm not 739. i juz finished a game of hexic on msn with weemin. one lousy bomb killed my game. arghh. nvm. its time again to update my blog.

lets see. the things which happened over the past few days(weeks) since the last post. i finally went clubbing. yup. after working one day at the great world city service apartment for some lantern festival thingy. all the kids there are so darn cute. haha. anyway its funny looking at caucasians celebrating lantern fest and learning abt tat gal who flew to the moon. haha. so tiring serving the wine and drinks to the ppl there. phew. but after at, nikki(my employer) asked us whether we can go out after packing up. it was a friday night(in the middle of my prelim weeks which earlier in the morn i did my chem paper2) so i went. eric(co-worker) came to pick us(nikki, nikki's fren and her bf, noor, noor2, john, me) up after work in his cool spacious merc private mini bus. can sit at least 11 ppl! great for partying! haha. anyway we went DXO. can say its a bore. there were very few ppl there. the atmosphere was like really dead. a few ppl bobbing on the dance floor. and ppl sitting ard drinking. the house music was crap tat night. we drank and we left quickly to go somewhere else. nikki's fren 's bf paid nikki for his drink(since she paid for all of our drinks) which was 2 beers(1 for 1). den he left. 200 bucks. YUP. 200 FREAKING BUCKS! for 1 BEER! crap. haha. we went DBL O next. cover charges were paid using the 200 bucks and the drinks too were paid using the money. DLB O was so much better. it was more happening. and the house music was top 40 hits remix. so much better. i stay clear of alcohols that day. dun really like alcohol anyway. DBL O was good except tat they closed at 3am. in the end i went home while nikki they all went to another club. tat was tiring man. 2 clubs in one night. i dun think i will go clubbing anytime soon. pubbing at any time wins clubbing for me.

prelims. went thru with it. can predict tat my scores are gonna be the lowest grade ever. didn't even study for it. dunno where my mind went. this is badddd.... anyway. i think i have got nothing else to say. only tat tml. is the start of the few boring weeks to come.

ard 2 more months and i m freeeeeee..............

54 more days till yume no tokou~~

anime.

2005-08-23T14:48:00.000+08:00

i finally know what i want to do from now on.. after watching spirited away for 5 times in 5 days. anime. anime production is what i m gonna do for the rest of my life. even though its gonna be tough. low pay and gonna be really discouraged for most of the time(constant saying from everyone who didn't think tat me being in anime production is real.) i think i will never die down from this challenge coz the passion for it is strong enuff. its extra hard for me. i can't speak jap for nuts. and the only way to excel in this production is to go japan. after As. if the uni has this kind of animation design, i will definitely go for it. and maybe ten years down the road, i will have my own anime movie, inspiring others just as miyazaki hayao, creator of spirited away had inspired me with his imagination and wonderful ideas.

i shud have known, since young i was dabbling in art. mostly drawing cartoons and copying anime characters. now its time for me to create my own style, my own characters. realising tat, i have been more observant these few days ard my surroundings. how each object has its own life and way of drawing. i will follow art and anime, one day i will be the one who create them. this journey is one tats gonna be filled with lots of ups and down, setbacks. hmmm, i hope i can do wat i really love as my career. weee.......

inuyasha!!!

2005-08-07T21:49:00.000+08:00

its official.

i finished watching the whole series of the anime Inuyasha.

my life is brought back into the pit of boredom.

have to wait and wait and wait. pray and pray and pray.
tat Takahashi Rumiko or rather the company Sunrise Inc., creator of Inuyasha would start on the new series of inuyasha. becoz. basically. the last episode tat i watched ep 167. obviously wasn't the end of the whole series. naraku wasn't killed! did the creator got lazy and left the anime the way it is. or did she decided to take a break before doing up another series of the anime. i don't know. but i do hope its the latter.

i m dragged into the fantasy and unrealistic world of Inuyasha. the feudal times of japan. crap. its so good tat i dream of jumping into the wooden well and see kagome and inuyasha, sango, miroku, shippo and kirara as my fighting partners everyday.

i will go crazy la. it doesn't exist in this world and it never will. besides, i can't speak jap for nuts. how the heck are we gonna communicate? probably after a fight with the youkais(demons) and i will get injure and kagome will probably go like **"mingfang san, dai ju o bu desuka?" i will go like "wat? wat? dunno wat u saying? ni shuo shen me?(你说什么?)" and den she presumely think tat i m okie. i will be left to bleed and die. but heck being inside tat fantasy world is good enuff worse come to worse i will draw!

shippo draws too!

and when i m there, my grandfather ojisan will bluff my modern day frens and sch that i come down with some economy class syndromes or some allergy to butterflies and thus cannot go to sch! yeah! no sch! now i understand why kagome enjoys being in the feudal jidai. no exams. juz fight fight fight. with the company of ur funny friends. day and night. no curfew. and no cars there = no pollution. we fly in the feudal jidai. hmmm. with kagome and shippo on inuyasha's back. sango and miroku on kirara's back.

where do i go? i can knock totosai and take his flying cow , MOMO.

not tat bad actually. momo for a cow. hmmm. flying is so much better than having to travel on foot or by car. 1stly, in the feudal jidai, there ain't many flying objects in the sky so traffic is minimal. no getting stuck in traffic jams and miss fighting ur youkai. 2ndly, u dunhav to pay ERP for no reason and theres not such need to wait till 8pm to skip the ERP charges. 3rdly, u wouldn't need to step on any spit or dog poo accidentally while walking(becoz u are flying!) there are so many other reasons tat would make you think tat flying is very much indeed a wonderful thing! which unfortunately u can't experience it in your modern time. and if i m lucky, i can be like kagome, a miko(priestress) with supernatural powerful flying arrows with purifying powers tat would even turn hitler into a saint. i will fight naraku! and kill hakudoshi. and restore the shikon no tama. and let inuyasha turn into a mortal and he and kagome can live happily every after, tat is if kikyo dun turn out unexpectedly. and maybe find rin and sesshomaru sometimes.

its so easy to locate everyone in the feudal jidai. somehow the world there seems smaller or its juz tat everyone is gathered ard the same place. wat a life. my wishes all come true in one place: no exams, no curfews, flying ard to places, special powers, funny looking creatures. sigh.

i think i m missing inuyasha too much.

i want to watch it.

now.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. I MISSED INUYASHA!!! gimme more!!!!!

**translated to eng: "mingfang, are you alright?"

renaissance 2000-2005

2005-07-11T00:44:00.000+08:00

renaissance.
a special word.
a special memory.
a special event.
that i followed for 6 years, from when i was sec1.. and now.. it has finally come to an end. i m gonna miss it. i definitely will. i saw 6 batches of graduating sec4s dominate each night of the concert. each with different styles and ways of holding the concert. but the one thing tat remain throughout these 6 years was their conductor. it was always mr lester lim. yesterady was his last night. he left the band. i will be sorely missing him as sjimb conductor! he was the main factor tat each renaissance was so successful and entertaining each year. his choice of pieces caters to everyone and there's a glaring big theme to the concert and tat is "fun! and be entertained!" his jokes and his witty comments abt everything is certainly refreshing in the band world. to me renaissance was the event each year that i could get to understand the amazement of the band-sjimb in their way of functioning.. how they managed to be so military disciplined and yet enjoy playing fun music at the same time. this is a band which i saw has the highest amt of energy and enthusiasim. they make being in a band look so fun!

renaissance was also the time where i could meet up with my rarely seen band friends both inside sjimb and those who attend the concert. in short renaissance was the annual gathering of band ppl who seeks fun in making music. compliments are exchanged, flowers are given, gifts are presented, and most impt of all, the ties were stronger. after every renaissance, i would wonder and wish it will never end. wish tat the magical night would stay forever. it so wonderful to see your friends giving their all and play to present the best to the audience.

the attachment to sjimb in my heart is so freakingly strong tat sometimes it scares me but i m glad for it. considering i used to hate sjimb when i was a tiny and ignorant sec1 being psycho-ed by my seniors tat when we play music we were supposed to sit still and not move our body to the music which i saw wasn't the case for sjimb. i became critical and critcised sjimb. and at tat time i thought tat mr lim was weird because of his name, lester. den the time came when my sn conductor then-mrs wong had to attend some course in dec. her good friend, mr lester lim was brought in to take over the band for a while. in the 1st prac with him. i thot tat he was crappy. and he didn't looked very professional as compared to mrs wong. i could still remember his method of telling us to go to the forum close our eyes and listen to auld lang syne(how do u spell it anyway..) and he asked us if we felt the music. i simply shrugged it off. i thot it was crap. how could anyone listen to music in their head and expect to be moved by it?!?! i was wrong, i was ignorant then. still a pesky sec1. i could well feel the music in my head and be moved by it now. music is not to be listened, it is to be moved by it. to feel it touching our souls. tat was an important lesson. and soon enough, our whole band were pro pro pro mr lim. band suddenly became more relaxed and fun! he left us ard march. and i could still remember one of my bandmates saying "wat?!?! mr lim is not coming to our band anymore?!?! i m gonna quit band already!!!" everything was back to where it was. mr lim coming to snsb was like a wonderful dream. a dream tat most of us did not want to wake up from. everything was monotoneus till by chance i found out from my friend tat mr lim has a shop! so the few of us(me, emmiline, jialin and yukching) rushed all the way down from kinokuniya to crown centre. we were complete idiots den.. we saw someone very familiar loading things into a green car. "someone" simply stared at us as if we were idiots( we were panting and catching our breaths from running from the bus stop) den he got into the car with a few other ppl and drove off.. it was ard 4 plus pm. we then went up to the second level of crown centre and found out tat the shop was closed. we lingered outside the shop for a while before someone said "tat was mr lim!!!! the guy at the car!!!" we stupidly remembered tat the guy at the green car was mr lim! no wonder he was staring at us! because he found us familiar too! he might be like saying "eh those kids over there are like from st nicks, wat they doing there." cripes, we juz barely missed him. so we went back a few days later with patricia(one of our fav seniors).. there the night of suppers, hanging out at his shop, the adventures (like going to orchid farm where he drove at 30km/h in the middle lane at the expressway while other cars sped past us in the other 2 lanes juz to shake over a bugger tailgater lorry before reaching 80km/h in 3 secs when the other cars horned behind us were funny) began.. and suddenly sjimb did not seemed so distant after all. and suddenly band wasn't simply juz a CCA.. a lot of good friends were found there inside the band and as well as other friends of sjimb. the good frens like ruth, shuyu were met through sjimb. my "bro" jacky and "son" brendan were found there. sjimb was like a second family of friends with my 1st family snsb. sjimb could well say, brought me joy, laughter and valuable frens for whom i would like to take a moment to mention.. zhezhang for being so crappy and outbursting, vignesh for being so quietly funny, rao who is so amazingly nice, paul lee for being so gay and bringing laughter, ben goh for being so helpful in hwk, ben lim for being so playful in games tat he's like a games guide, jansen the ah pek who advises ppl to study harder, linus who is so informative, jacky who is so sweet and yet irritating at the same time as my brother, james who helps ppl(monetary terms Lol!) in times of need so readily, pavin-weemin-kevin-melvin loh-bryan-sara-wenseng-jer who brings the sjimb fun into cj life now, cheukyin for fetching ppl home so readily, weiyang for being so helpful in settling stuff which i need help for, paul goh for being so on in going places(sn band prac. lol.), brendan for being so nice and cute as my son, gareth for being so helpful to every ridiculous suggestions tat i have, dom for being my late night gunbound partner and crapper, tim chua for his funny comments, ian chai for his help in html stuff and gunbound playing too, and the seniors like daniel ow, shaun tham, nick hong, who are so crappy and lame(esp dan), all these ppl who shared the same passion for bandmusic as well as beautiful music... so.. thank you st joseph institution military band and a big thank you to you, mr lester lim!.. for u brought me deeper in loving bandmusic when u made it so fun..

for now.. it shall be a memory.. a lasting memory of yesterday..

reached home from band ard 4pm. quickly rushed thru the presents and got out of the house at 6.30pm. took a cab with mum who was on her way out with her frens. managed to reach sji in time. didn't really have a good seat(shuyu spent the time outside the bandroom till it was really late) though.. the second nite concert was more fun i guessed due to the absence of the noisy sec1s from the 1st night. and second nite sounded nicer.. atmosphere was good. and brendan played his solos well! during the interval gave all the flowers away and a bear to brendan. he called me up "mingfang where are u???" "i m here, where are u?" "second level(muffled)" "wat?????(louder)" "i m on second level!(louder)"it was getting really noisy in the front of the stage before i actually heard wat he said. i waved for him to come down. and he went all the way down from the second level to take the presents i got for him, a maroon soft fluffy bear and a daisy.. took a photo with him. so happy! later then took a photo with the pale white paul goh who seems taller and tim chua with his funky orange spects. interval over and the alumni went on stage. they played 2 pieces and it was really touching, i could feel the music as if it was a farewell to mr lim with the theme "wat a wonderful world" in satchmo!.. i could feel tears in my eyes as i realised it was really his last concert with sjimb.. the night ended with the presents to mr lim, a speech by bro mike to mr lim, a thunderous applause for mr lim for his years of dedications to sjimb, standing ovations by some. "ovation overture" was his. he truly deserved the applause and compliments. after the band toast, we all went off to lido to catch fantastic4 at 1215am, it was alright, not really tat fantastic though. gave a ride home to geraldson and melvin loh on my way home with mum on the cab, reached home ard 3am. slept ard 430am after talking to shuyu on the phone. tat was the ending of the day.

renaissance, a concert tat brings ppl together, memories of this, mr lim, sjimb will not disppear, it will linger long and vividly in my mind.

thank you sjimb and mr lim...

(the recordings of the concerts are out, both nights, quality not really tat good(recorded in a zen micro) but if anyone wants it for keepsake pls give me a msg.)

boring afternoon..

2005-07-05T13:13:00.000+08:00

a boring afternoon as she sits in the library thinking how her life would be at least for the next 10 hours... the last place in her life would be wondering in the library browsing through the endless row of book-filled shelves... then hastingly she skimmed the rows. she spotted one rather modern-looking white cover book. "goodbye, ruby tuesday" by donna hay. flipped a few pages. decided that it would be quite interesting to read. little did she know that, that little 2 inch thick book would bring back the memories of what a wonderful place "the library" is... CJ library did not really present a wonderful selection of the newest best sellers in the market. but it was enough. enough for her to convince herself that she still have a debt incurred to the national library of $18.95 which she has yet to pay. after so many years she rationalized and decided to fork out money to pay for the fine which would enable her access to the superfluity of novels that would quench her thirst for modern day scandals and family gossips, immersed in a world of imagination of people living their lives in her modern world, yet real enough to feel that they really happened. she spent 4 hours to finish the 368 pages till 6am then did she realised for once she was reading a book that did not require any 100% concentration on each word and its meaning which she has been doing all these while with those economics essays and chemistry equations. the joy of reading.

she was a librarian in her younger days, from primary 4 to primary 6, the presumably slack CCA as seen by all, ironically in her primary school being a librarian was cool to her peers, then. she had the control of all library access, she could borrow more books than all her mates, she could be the chief librarian-in-charge of the day, using the apparently high tech "scanner" then to process all the books at the main counter, it was enjoyable working in the library with her fellow librarians. she smiled at those days where CCAs meant no politics, no full commitment, just pure fun. "impossible" was the word to describe the frequency of the number of political disagreements in each organisation not happening as one grows older. a stressful day could be end off by watching reruns of friends or simply lying in bed trying to plunge straight into a dream. then, there is the wonders of a book. access to world of imagination with no solid picture or sound, just exclusively her imagination. and reading more books has enabled her to key in her not-so-frequent journals to "crap" more substantively thoughts with a peck of better writing. not much difference but a tiny little bit better.

she sits in the library thinking of what her next 10 hours would be like... "travel to Great world city," she says, she was thinking of work. "take the train back home or maybe near the neighbour.." she was thinking of a getaway to home or a dinner with her mum in the neighbourhood. "watch tv," she was thinking of relaxing to the visions and the creativity of each scripted works flashing on the tiny screen. "read the book i just borrowed today," she was thinking of the book she borrowed in the library earlier on in the morning at 1125am. "sleep, then.." she was thinking of restoring her energy for next day of school. "this is dumb." she was thinking of why she keeps using the same format of writing in this paragraph. "cause i ran out of ideas.." that was the reason she says.

to end this off, an extract from "The Dilbert Principle" by Scott Adams.
A company purchased laptop computers for employees to use while traveling. Fearing they might be stolen, the managers came up with a clever solution: permanently attach the laptop computers to the employees' desks.

time for a not so well deserved rest...

2005-06-30T11:29:00.000+08:00

OVER!!! wan2 le4! dekiagari! prêt! acabado! finito! yeah!!!!!! all's well ends well... hmmm.. not exactly wat i would use to describe my 3 papers that i juz took over the past 4 days. juz did my maths. well. my aim was to get more than my previous marks. a lowly 15. i guess i can at least get past tat! =) crap. one more crap NE!... here's a quick review of my papers. GP: alright. its really unexpectable. Chem: did half the paper. forgot all abt j1 stuff.. Econs: it was alright hope can get at least a C. Maths: confirm F. haha. time to hunt for a super powered prof in maths as a tutor. but now.. gotta work on my chem.. its quite fun since u get the hang of doing the papers. haha. going a bit crazy. i m still suffering from the sickening flu.. its 3 weeks already man. mucus production factory juz started up 3 weeks ago.. still going strong. guess they have shifts all ard 24 hours. i shall not visit the doc. let my body's immune system fight them. dun really care abt it. its alright... juz tat it makes me feel a wee bit tired all the time.. go home and have fun!!! yeah!!!.. but now... time to go LT1 for the NE "quiz"...................... ciao.

peace in singapore no more?

2005-06-21T22:40:00.000+08:00

bored. few more days till sch reopens. 5 more days to doomsday! wat the heck m i doing here? no idea. my moronic sis invitingly prepare the comp for use and asked "hey.. you wanna use the comp?"... the pull of the computer. my brain is weak.. i m supposed to study!!!... arghhh.. anyway.. juz saw my msn list. adeline juz lost her wallet as well.. as seen by her nick "curse the bloody idiot who STOLE my wallet...".. crap.. wat is singapore coming to man? so many pickpockets and thieves. go get a life. work and earn your money. dun steal other ppl's stuff.. tat is so freaking irritating... bloody freeloaders. who are literally free loaders since they live off ppl's belongings... by stealing them.. i can't wait to see one day where all the thieves and pickpockets gets some itchy hands diseases which will only stop when they turn in themselves... these thieves and pickpockets!!! i hope your will get ur retribution!... for all the unnecessary sufferings tat your did to ur innocent victims who did not have to suffer them at all... due to ur insensitive and punishable illegal actions... these thieves and pickpockets!!! stop ruining the image of singapore being a safe city!!! pests of society...
arghh.. enuff of these... juz hoped tat whoever stole ade's wallet will at least return all the impt cards... gonna watch rerun of friends... ciao~

beware of thieves!!!

2005-06-18T01:50:00.000+08:00

okie. wat a fast posting. as compared to most of the time i took so long to update. wats sooo special today?

well....

basically...

SOME FREAKING IDIOTS STOLE MY PHONE!!!!!!!
they juz took it from my pocket. according to my elder sis. 2 fat aunties were hovering ard me for a very long time. they work in pair!!! beware. they kept pushing my sis and mum away when we were buying something. crap. so ppl! if u see 2 fat aunties ard u!.. BEWARE!!!. esp in crowded places. better to place ur phone/wallet in ur bag. well.. unfortunately for the two stupid aunties. i cancelled my line and activated my IMED code as well. soo.... it means.. they can't use th phone and they can't sell it!!!! hooray!!! serves them rite for stealing my phone. well.. it taught me a lesson too... never leave ur valuables ard. place them in very very hard to reach places like in your bag. so as to not let these ppl who steals get away with it. i m saddened by the fact tat my phone got stolen after juz 1 month of using it.. crap.. well.. but life's like this. things happens for a reason.. i shan't really tink abt my phone anymore. if there is any.. i hope all pickpockets/thieves get caught. the suffering they will incur in time.. bad karma. i believe in tis.. at least it makes me feel a little better. crap.

rest in peace. my dearest phone. u have been great. a place for u in my heart always... 17th may 2005 - 17th june 2005.

going crazy....

2005-06-14T23:16:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. wat a long time since i have blogged. half of the holis have passed and i did nothing at all. sigh. haha. gonna start work on thurs for fun. juz really part time-part time. i have to study real soon! real soon!!! crap. rummaged thru my zen micro which unfortunately is still spoilt. found natalie's going crazy. so nice. reminds me of something/someone. meaningful lyrics. its still playing on my zen right now. haha. i shall go study soon!!!

Ever since the day you went away
and left me lonely and cold
my life just hasn't been the same
oh baby no
when i looked into your eyes
the moment that i let you go i just broke down

baby if i ever get the chance to be with you again
I would sacrifice
Cuz the feelin that I feel within no other man would ever make me feel so right
its nice to smile when i get your phone call at night
But I rather have you here with me
right next to me
and I miss the way you hold me tight

I've got to let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that i could ever love a man so much
I've gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world for you
I'd do anything

That's right baby
Im goin crazy
I need to be your lady
I been thinkin lately
that you and me yes we can make it
just ride with me roll with me
Im in love with you (baby)

Thats right baby
Im goin crazy
I need to be your lady
I been thinkin lately
that you and me yes we can make it
just ride with me roll with me
Im in love with you (baby)

break it down then I'll tell you what i feel
from the moment that i met you its been so damn real
my heart seems to skip another beat every time we speak
Can't belive I feel so weak
tell me that you really need me
and you want me
and you miss me
and you love me
I'm your lady
I'll be around waitin for you
put it down be the woman for you
im fallin so deep for you
crazy over you im callin
callin out to you
what am i gonna do?
its true no frontin
it's u ain't no other
I can no longer go on without you
I just break down (down)

I've got to let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that i could ever love a man so much
I've gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world for you
I'd do anything

Thats right baby
Im goin crazy
I need to be your lady
I been thinkin lately
that you and me, yes we can make it
just ride with me roll with me
Im in love with you (baby)

Thats right baby
Im goin crazy
I need to be your lady
I been thinkin lately
that you and me, yes we can make it
just ride with me roll with me
Im in love with you (baby)

a day of remembrance.. 050505

2005-05-25T09:55:00.000+08:00

5TH May.

SYF2005.
the day was anticipating. was late for school because of one stupid bus. had to serve detention on another day. left class at 10am. managed to do up some stars(lucky charms?) for most of the band members. for those whom i have forgotten and have left out. my apologies. i really didn't have enough time. wasn't really feeling the intense atmosphere of what seemed like my last SYF ever. previous SYF with SNSB had been a silver. and clearly what a experience i didn't enjoy at all. i was so freaked out. but on SYF 2005 day. i was quite relaxed. the built up to 2.30pm was unpleasant. i was frustrated. maybe of hidden stress i did not notice. but was alright after i let out all my emotions. skipped lunch to finish up the stars. changed into the formal U. everyone looked so funny with their oversized blazers. we had a mini talk in the band room with "howl's moving castle" OST in the backgrd. went on the bus.

and there we were. on the steps of Singapore Conference Hall. was feeling a bit nervous at tat point. heard a bit of RJ playing from outside the hall. they sounded really good from where we were standing. they played "the Chosen". next i quite of remembered hearing SAJC play.. next YJ went in. soon it was our turn. scary.. i was really feeling nervous. FREAKED OUT. went in to see ourselves heading straight to the stage. no backstage or wat so ever. crap. the hall. was filled. did wat we did during rehearsals. stand up. smile. sit down. start playing. my "D" went off suddenly. like an inflated balloon being punched. i guess no one heard it. which is good. tat was one of my scariest moments. Singapore rhapsody was okie. i was actually quite surprised at how soft our band sounded from where i was sitting. the crunch time came when it came to "heart and voice" my bar 23. not mastered at all. i tried my best to run up to the 4th octave C before coming down. den run up again to sustain a 4th octave Bflat for 4 counts. it wasn't really as bad as i feared after comments from other ppl. at least my Bflat was quite in tune. the rest of the piece juz went so fast. it was over in a moment. ALL over. months of hard work. i felt good. this time it was more enjoyable than SYF2003. phew.

waited for a very long time for the results to be announced. everyone was feeling nervous as usual. there were 3 shockers in the results. 1st one came right at the start. everybody had expected ACJC to get Gold with honours. they got Gold. somehow i felt the sadness of their band within my own nervous-ness. i respected AC as one of the best band in singapore. 2nd shocker top JC band of SYf 2003 got a gold without honours as well. they were really good. tat didn't justify wat they should have gotten. Gold with honours. 3rd shocker. HC got a silver and i heard tat they sounded really good in the morning. i guessed everyone fell to the curse of SCH. listening to all these results only made me feel more scared and worried. the TOP bands. they only got a gold. wat will the comp leaves us. CJCband with? "Band no. 14 Catholic Junior College... Gold!" i didn't even bother whether other ppl were looking. i jumped up and screamed for joy. the tension within me. my last SYF finally. ended off with a good result. i cried. tis time. it was tears of happiness. hugged sandie and elynn. congratulated TJ band before rushing down to join the rest of the band. somehow i felt tat the mood in SCH was really sad. admist a few bands's jpoy of their results. RJ and AC were really quiet. i felt really sorry for them. to RJ and AC: U GUYS did a GREAT job! sometimes results doesn't come out the way they should be. Credits to ur performance.

we went off for school soon enuff. found out tat my piccolo was spoilt. juz RIGHT AFTER syf. haha. wat luck. reached sch. and the usual taupoking starts. this band has been in chaos and havoc since the SJI guys came in. their Project A didn't work out. alvin went off b4 they could do anything abt it. haha. den bro paul came to speak to us. after packing we all went to taka for dinner and celebrations! at SEOUL garden!!! we paid only 10 bucks! Sir paid the rest of the 7 bucks. the deal was gotten due to ketsu. so i guess we shud thank him for getting us tis cheap cheap deal. haha. had a great time in seoul garden. our table was fun. consist of me, ketsu, elynn, amelia and marianne. we are oso the healthy table if u compare ours to weemin's table of all the shell seafood. ours were full of veggie. sandie's table next to ours was the carnivore's table. full of meat. we left ard 10pm. everyone went their separated ways after one final group photo at the front of ngee ann city. reached home feeling really tired. but satisified. it was a really fruitful day.

and surprising wat a good memory i have even after 20 days it happened. wat great significance was tis SYF. shall go for class before trying to catch up on all my missing days' entries.
anyway heard one very nice song. "mummy" by JJ Lin. the 1st chinese song to ever debut in my zen micro!! haha. which btw is spolit. time to send it for repair soon!

band camp.

2005-04-26T22:41:00.000+08:00

woot! so tiring. had band camp last friday. it was fun. but too lazy to elaborate on everything.
1st nite.
had band prac from 7 plus to 10 plus. den we were told to sleep early. sandie and 2 other gals had a mini hide and seek. and they went into the boys toilet. haha. but were discovered by alvin. everyone slept ard 2 plus tat nite.
2nd day.
band prac for most of the time. had games in the morning. sent my 1st letter to my mortal via anne. had bbq at nite. sent a lot of food to my mortal claiming tat his angel sent it to him. played football at nite and let in 4/5 goals. i m really bad at football. haha. den went down to eat more food and played the number game. my mortal got stuck down 2 times. 1st one sexy poses(have yet to see the photos) 2nd one have to read some lame and obsence news article and its real funny.. too bad i din record it down. den me, jeremy lim, someone and my mortal laid in the middle of the parade square and looked at the stars awhile. clear sky but not really a lot of stars. wat a pity. but it was a very nice view. went to bathe after tat. did my "present" for my mortal till ard 3plus am b4 sleeping. was like folding the stars and falling asleep at the same time la.
3rd day.
had breakfast and passed my bottle of stars to my mortal via anne again. had band prac again. den revealing of the angel-mortal game. my angel is marianne! and she gave me a set of inuyasha keychains! so nice! and my mortal is ketsu. haha. i call him the mouse. went home with sara and weemin. almost met with a bus accident on the way home. a malaysia blue bus skidded across the lanes blocking the whole road in front of our bus. it was tat close man. it was raining somemore. reached home bathed again ate a bit and slept all the way till 6am.

monday.
woke up 15 mins earlier to plan to reach sch earlier. walked all the way to the mrt station and guess wat? left my wallet at home. and i only got 2 bucks in my pocket. no 1 trip ride for me. so angry la. walked all the way home to get my bloody wallet which was left on my bed. and so. was late for sch. had to do detention. crap. sch was crap and damn freaking hot. the weather nowadays is horrible. sitting under the fan also will sweat lah. went for detention at 2. had lunch at the detention corner with steph. den went off to town with ketsu to look for his non-existence histroy guidebook. haha. den went back for band. while he went off for heats. tried the new piccolo. but it was faulty. crap. reached home ard 940pm. watched desperate housewives and slept.

tuesday.
nth much except bad weather. bought a naruto poster for chenyi.

SYF is approaching!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i love my mum.

2005-04-10T11:09:00.000+08:00

i love my mum. i love her so much. i wouldn't know wat will happen when she leaves. but i know she will want me to be strong. somehow i juz wish i have more time with her. more time for her to see me at my graduation. more time for her to give her blessings at my wedding. more time for her to carry her grandchildren. juz more time with her. cherishing every single moment i have with her. but time at band is so time-consuming. i need more time. more time with her.

my younger sis and my mum. it would be so hard to not be able to see her smile again.

God bless my mum.

2005-04-01T11:01:00.000+08:00

I love David from simple pLan! he's so cool!

creative..

2005-03-22T21:16:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. dunno whether is i woke up abruptly today or wat. din finish my dream. woke up feeeling REALLY REALLY tired today. even though i slept for like 4 hours. spent the whole day trying to hide from teachers in sch today. not exactly hide. more like pretending to be awake in lects while sleeping. hahah. everything was such a blur today. got back GP. din do well. missed the passing mark by 3.5. not tat mine was bad or wat. since only 2 ppl in our class juz borderline passed. the rest. well. like me failed. hahah. saw ruyu in sch today. she's coming over to cj. and met grace and eunice on my way out. eunice's appealing in. tis year's cut off point went up. or down. depends on how u want to see it. 13 or 14 tis year compared to last years 15, 16. haha. crazy man. everywhere is getting lower. heard from ruyu tat nyjc cutoff is partial 10. man. wat is tis world coming to? haha. i m glad i m like out of tis crappy thingy already.
went to creative after sch to get my zen micro fixed. my comp doesn't detect anything from it. and guess who i saw at the cj bus stop! ruiming would have puke blood. haha. the white colour gal at creative fest . the one with the super duper fake accent. and arrogant gal who happens to be from cj. she claims she's from council. juz found out she's juz some small fry. was glad tat she din recognize me. haha. sat on 105 all the way to creative headquarters. reached there only to find out tat my problem with my zen was tat i din connect the cable properly la. nothing wrong with the zen or my comp. the prob is me. haha. crap man. wasted so much time. went to jurong east mrt's popular to buy some looney tunes testpad. was wondering wat all the "jurong" ppl were doing. den slept on the train back again. 4th visit to creative headquarters in a matter of 5 days. how "interesting my" life is la.
uploaded all the songs i wanted on my zen micro! yeah~ finally! =)
tml's band. so sleepy again. maybe i will sleep earlier today. maybe.

interesting week?

2005-03-20T20:55:00.000+08:00

if last week was interesting. i dunno how to describe tis one. tis week is like dots dots dots. how do u describe something tat is so out of the world.

Monday.
overslept. supposed to go sch for chem lesson from 9 -1pm. but OOPS! haha. went with sis to go the most boring place in the world. SUNPLAZA. well. benefitted from the trip though. borrowed Inuyasha VCD vol 5. skipped vol4. since it wasn't in the shop. felt so deprived of new inuyasha serials since dunno when la. watched the 13 episodes till 3am in the morning. refreshed! haha. passion for inuyasha is revived! yeah!

Tuesday.
supposed to wake up at 9 in the morning to go for band outing at sentosa. too lazy to wake up on time. was abt to get out of the house at 1pm den decided to not go. how fickle minded. lol. stayed at home to stare at teh chem hwk. but slacked pretty much of the time at home. watched "and i loved her" which made me realised how stupid misunderstandings are really stupid enuff to cause so much stupid anger tat will result in stupid misery for everyone. haha. wat crap. heck. talked to jacky and shuyu till 3 plus in the morning

Wednesday.
woke up feeling like crap. 3 hours of sleep is not enuff man. went chem lesson at 9am till 1pm. the lesson was really relaxing la. ms woo brought like sweets, cookies to the lesson. like having a mini snack party there. went for band at 1pm to see them have their lunch. did a bit of singapore raphsody den waited for alumni band to start. reached home at ard 1130pm. tired man.

Thursday-Sunday.
THE DAY is finally here! creative fest queuing day! slept till 12pm. wanted to sleep later. so as to prepare myself for the queuing. went casueway point to watch howl's moving castle again with shuyu. i totally enjoyed watching it again. it was so nice! went home to after tat to prepare for the creative fest. nicholas din come with me. he decided not to go since he did not get his PSP tat day. haha. reached there to be real shocked. 9pm i reached. the queue was 100 plus already. shucks. wanted to leave straight away. was quite glad i din. coz i decided to go the zen micro instead. know a ppl from my camping there. mary, susan, hassan, tok cock. which obviously wasn't their name. haha. i became bob sure. mary-kang sheng(i tink) susan-ruiming hassan-ivan tok cock-zhongzhi. they are all damn lame la. and real good at entreprenuership(is tat how u spell it? my spelling sux.) went over to sleep at shuyu's house for the nite. and the next 2 days of creative fest was juz camping and slacking at the creative headquarters. it sort of became our playground. poker cards turned into a lot of diff games. met shuyu on the second nite. kang sheng injured his feet while walking to JE. we ended up walking to the clinic 1st or rather rushing there. coz kangsheng's feet was bleeding quite excessively. they had their supper den we went back to the creative headquarters. played the name game with ruiming and chinwawa(sort of find tis name nicer. lol). told them abt alex kwee's blunders in class. i chose mitsubishi, ruiming chose toyota and ch chose mercs. halfway thru. ch shouted toshiba. apparently he got affected by wat i say abt mr kwee giving an eg of a car model name toshiba. hahah. i won quite a few of the memory games we played. ruiming's memory is not tat good. he says its bad luck. rested on the sleeping bag out in the open and watched the stars as benedict said some lame questions. mark went off sitting at one side and thot really hard at one qn: "red or green".. for his zen micro for ard 40 mins before returning to the sleeping bag. haha. we slept for a while before being awaken by the increasing number of mosquitos biting us. ruiming said he dreamt tat his chin teacher was promoting the zen micro in his dreams. wat crap man. haha. too much of creative fest in the head. and he said tat he dreamt tat i was running ard the place killing the mosquitos. gosh. how lame man. lol. bought an orange zen micro. it look quite nice. for a while wasn't feeling tat well. went to Sp for the alumni concert. it was okie. took a photo with teow! haha. =) den went back to join "mary" at the Creative headquarters. last day of queueing for creative fest and it was relatively empty as compared to the 1st day. ruiming, ivan and their fren tim went home after 11pm. i slept for the longest hours of ard 4 hours in the tent. it felt so nice, so refreshing. but i was really really tired. met kang sheng's mother there. ruiming came at 11am plus to collect ivan's stuff. went off after kang senhg collected his PMC. slept on the way back on the train. slept for another 6 hours when i reached home. and i still feel tired. but it was definitely a weird experience for me. filled with lots of mosquitos bites.

and here comes another week of rushing thru sch work. sigh. sch again.

interesting week.

2005-03-14T21:53:00.000+08:00

bored. really. beginning of the holis. wat a weird (6th march to 13th match) week i had. had a really few weird dreams. all which are of ppl dying in my dreams via heart attacks. wonder wat it means. scary. but it also showed me who i cared most abt whom i shan't reveal other than my family members. scary thot to tink tat when you die, everybody is juz gonna continue on their lives without you. and not being able to see them again. *shudders* is juz really sad. and even dreamt tat i m gonna die at age 30 plus via heart attack. guessed i watched too much Gattaca(vincent was supposed to die at age 30 plus via heart attack).
anyway. got back my chinese results. got a B3. crap. wanted to get at least an A2. spent 4 years studying HCl in st nicks to get a B3. wat hard luck. haha.
anyway. good news for me. and liverpoolfc. we won against bayern leverkusen. 3-1 to lfc again. 6-2 on agg to liverpool! YEAH! haha. din get to see the match. it was delayed on ESPN. 6am. how in the world can i watch it when i have to go sch. taped it. was really happy tat Luis Garcia scored 2 goals! tat shud slience most of the ppl tat doubt him. like those 2 gals at the lfc vs man u match at city hall there. kept on blaming garcia. truth is liverpool as a whole weren't even playing well tat day. crap. no blame for anyone. haha. tat win in champs league really made my day. woo~

luis garcia after scoring! weeee~~~

another one behind the net!

hmmm. recently juz rumaged thru my stack of mp3s and found one nice jap song. from inuyasha OST. One day, one dream by tackey and tsubasa. and it sounds great. and tackey is really cute! haha. he looks really young for his age. remembered watching one of his jap drama serials like way back in 2002. and he's still ard! haha.

takki is really cute! haha.

anyway watched howl's moving castle and it was better than i expected. way better! the plot is so refreshing. i already had very high expectations for it and its great! and howl is cool! those who haven't watch it... quick go watch it now! haha. and btw did i say the OST for this movie is very nice? yup. =)

the castle.

cool howl.

young sophie.

howl and older sophie.

20th feb concert.

2005-02-22T21:47:00.000+08:00

concert. 20th feb. done. and over. thanx for all who came. thanx for the chocs and flowers. hope ur enjoy the concert as much as i did. haha. saw teow and he commented tat i played well. =) i said. no la. i played badly. he said. nope. u did well. *smile smile smile* cool. haha. anyways went out for supper after band. reached home at ard 2am. tok to daniel till 4. gossips as usual. din go sch on mon. like many of the other band members. had a band detention on tues afternoon. kind of corny to see so many band ppl having detentions at the same time. hahah. finally can rest after tis whole concert thingy is over. yeahh!!!!

18th bdae.

2005-02-05T23:11:00.000+08:00

turned 18. had band from 9-5pm. bdae tis year juz seemed like another day of my life. but thanx anne, mingli and etc for the bdae surprise during lunch. really took me by surprise. haha. thanx guys! it was nice. 18. lets see. no diff except tat i can go clubbing and pubbing officially. sigh. wats the point when sch and band's taking so much of my time. i dun even have time to sleep let alone find time to go these places. buy alcoholic drinks legally. wats the point again when i m allergic to them. rashes will appear. can watch M18 shows. wats the point when i already watch them few years back. so it comes down to the point. i m juz one year older and one year closer to death. hahah. watever the case is health is the most impt thing to me. without health. u can basically forget abt everything else. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me once again. haha.

chi new year's coming. which means. REST! haha. can rest and rest. which seem sooooooo valuable since the holis ended.

*peace*

Woodwind sectionals.

2005-01-22T20:57:00.000+08:00

weee. wat a crazy 3 weeks in sch. so tiring! band, sch, preparations for concert, syf, aint a good combination. no time to rest at all!!! gosh. how m i looking forward to sat night - sunday. only time where i can sleep till after 10am. today's band prac was tiring. 9am-430pm. tiring but interesting. hehe. anne would know wat i m toking abt. anyways. we got woodwinds sectionals in the afternoon. the sp band alumni conductor came to conduct us. quite funny. surprising time during the sectionals passed sooo fast.. Awwww. lol. how surprising tat i m complaining tat WW sectionals ended so fast. haha. well. today's sectionals is kind of different. haha. aint gonna say no more abt tis man. lol. its a secret. tinking of wat patrice said after the sectionals ended. really tickled me off. haha. sooo looking forward to next week's WW sectionals. lol.
anyway. CJ band concert is on 20th FEB 2005 VCH. time 7 or 730pm. forgot. get tixs from me. haha.

life's so far been good. sch, home, and i m turning 18 soon! WOO. 14 more days. haha. official date to go pubbing and clubbing without fear of getting caught. not tat i m dying to go there. anyway. CANDIES are filling my EYE. lots of them. if u get wat i mean. life aint so boring after all. haha.

2004-12-29T02:46:00.000+08:00

HAHA.
jacky here.
the blurhead mf forgot to log off her blogger
mf is mean. she take her own sweet time to blog and refuses to let me use the com. rah
and she keep smacking me.
what a bully.

LONG LONG LONG blog.

2004-12-21T23:19:00.000+08:00

wow wow wow... i m so lazy.. din blog for so many days already. wat can i say..

cj band tune-in. 7th dec
flute section was in charge of sandwiches. which was qute hot in demand. at least everything was finished up. close to 45 ppl turned up? i tink. which is quite good. highlight of the day: charles dancing a "sexy" dance as a result from his forfeit.
disgusting factor of the day: timothy stirring the fruit punch with his bare hands/arm.
overall the fun factor was there. other sections had lots of sec4s. flute in the became the same old flute section after 2 sec4s left halfway. hmmm. one day ended like tat.

TJ band concert 17th dec
was very tired on the day. was actually deciding whether i shud attend the concert. and especially so since it was so far away. bedok. -_-" anyway managed to get mum to fetch me to bedok since it was so faraway. taking mrt would take hours. went to have dinner with her before going for concert. was late for abt 1 hour. went in juz in time to see the alumni band. their band is good and quite big considered for a jc band with only j1s (plus a few sec4s). interesting concert. met a few bach and other band fest band ppl there. got to know tat i actually have a neighbour in bach band. haha. who stays juz one blk away from mine. went home feeeling reall tired.

VJ band concert. 18th Dec.
had band in the morning. den settled some QM stuff and help timothy sort out his scores before going home. bought flowers on the way back den decided to sleep for a while. wat a bad choice. woke up late den went to take a bus. but the bus never came. so decided to take a cab there. another bad choice. the taxi uncle went all the wayyyyyy to changi beofre turning to east coast. 21 bucks. most expensive taxi ride i ever taken in my whole life. but managed to reach there on time. stupid jacky bluff me he not going. but i saw him there. paul goh and james were there too. and they played some stupid taxi joke on me. shan't elaborate any further. the concert was basically fun. the skit was lame. saw his creation. but it was quite funny. gave flowers to him and the bach ppl. waited so long 40 mins for 853 to come but it never came. apparently 853 doesn't come on sat. diaoz. waited so long for nothing. went home via 63 i tink. so shagged and tired.

CIP at KK hospital. 20th Dec 2.30pm
went to KK hospital for the band CIP. prepared some Xmas carols on some flute quartet within the section. saw a lot of kids there. minor illness and terminal illnesses. felt really sorry for these kids. so young and yet.. they have to go thru so much. some point of the CIP while performing for them.. wanted to cry. felt tat it was really unfair for the kids to go thru all these.. esp those in the cancer wards. when the clarinet section played "silent nite".. and those look on the kids' faces. i wish i could do something for them. felt really guilty juz playing a few pieces and get so many hours of CIP. so played my best to give them wat little i can do for them. i wish them get well soon!

Flute Section outing at PS. 20th Dec 5.30pm.
anyways. after tat went for section outing. met ian and went pastamania. ian look so cute now. lol. like a small jap boy. hair all golden brown. hidden by a cap. lionel came oso. and we juz ate and walked ard PS. flute section is so cool! lol.

Stayover at shuyu's house 20th Dec. 9.00pm.
toked to shuyu and the rest on the conf on sunday nite. decided to visit shuyu's house for a stayover after learning from her the previous nite tat her house is available for stayover. went after the section outing. reached her house and met her fren. forgot her name. lol. anyway went 7 eleven bought some snacks and went to camp at shuyu's house. ben goh came later in the nite after his class bbq at west coast. so we spent the nite slacking and toking and watching some korean movie. which i thot was quite nice and interesting. its basically the very rough good looking bully falls for a normal gal and i tink becomes more refined?. haha. ya. anyway. had quite a nice time playing at her house and toking crap at nite.

Christmas eve. 24th Dec.
met shuyu and grace at somerset after having dinner with my parents. went hmv to look for xmas present for my mum. bought some classic canton oldies for her in the end. which she likes very much. den met alice, my last time co worker at the factory. bad news. she said one of the auntie got involved into an accident. in a coma. not sure whether its true. but in any case. i hope she gets well soon. she took good care of me when i was working. anyway. walked ard town and waited for for the countdown with a lot of sitting down in cafes and crapping. met jimmy to give him his xmas card at cine. the whole place was crowded like mad. feet were also aching from the heels. bad choice. countdown at the funfair was crazy too. almost fell down in the crowd and lost shuyu and grace for a moment. den waited for linus to appear before heading for shuyu's house to stayover again. chatted till 5 plus am before sleeping. went home at 7am and slept thru the nite.

Sixth Sense BBQ 28th Dec.
went ruth's house. actually still am in her house blogging. reached ard 7pm. and saw quite a few ppl at the pit. annual chalet has been reduced to juz a BBQ at ppl's house. but nvm. it was quite fun. and stupid jacky is asking me to get off the comp so he can use it. *ignores* staying over at ruth's house. been staying over at ppl's house quite a lot of times tis holi. haha. jacky's whining like a gal. played winning eleven 8 with melvin loh for the 1st time i lost. 2nd time i played with lfc i won. haha. via penalty shootout. haha. cool. okie. later there's band and i m dragging wm with me. haha. okie. gone.

band fest

2004-12-05T23:05:00.000+08:00

what a crazy 4 days! band fest rox! haha. made many new frens and met many old frens. really fruitful experience! i loved every min of it! though our band A seemed to be a little bit soft. i tink we did pretty well at the concert. so fast ended. wished that i could kop the whole band to cj. lol. so fun!!!!. hmmm. actually got a lot more things to say but too lazy to describe. BAND FEST ROX! wee~~~

live life with passion...- BACH

inuyasha

2004-11-08T16:48:00.000+08:00

anyway. watched one jap anime. cool. nice. Inuyasha. damn funny. i shall search for it and buy its series. anyway. worked for one week! 5 days actually. only three hundred plus only. but nvm. at least i m glad i worked for 5 days. earned some money. its quite fun at the work place. got a lot of interesting ppl. the whole place is like filled with foreigners. 60% china ppl. out of the 60%, 80%of them are like gals. all quite young. 18-26 like tat. hmmm.. gonna work tonite too. den tml go sch for pw Oral presentation. hmmm.

anyway. gotta go get my stuff and go for workkkkkk..
inuyasha. cool anime.

work

2004-11-01T11:49:00.000+08:00

hmmm. well found a job! yeah! a bit crazy. its 7pm to 7am. 67 dollars. not much i can ask for. but. no choice due to the clashes of sch, band in the morning which i will have to deal with if i get a morning job. yup. 1 month and 10 days! wish me luck and the will to work on! =) so its means no contacting ur and not being online at nite. so i m gonna disappear! dun worry. i will be back ya? cya! =)

hmmmmmmm. ending.

2004-10-24T14:56:00.000+08:00

been real tired tis whole week. totally drained. a mere puppet.
had kayaking on monday. fun. went gay beach to have lunch. interesting day. but tiring.
knew promos results. EOF. not as bad as i expected. mr lim asked me to take sup paper. "get promoted la. why do u want to retain?" and den mr d. ang said " wats ur prob? why u want to retain?" when i told him i wanted to. everyone's asking me why i want to retain. i set up my mind long ago. but now. everyone' asking me. i dunno anymore. shud i? shud i not? gonna take the sup paper ofr maths den see 1st. if i get a A or B for it den i will go on. if not den retain. fair enuff? i tink so.
went SAJC open house yesterday. weird huh? i go only when i m j1. i din go last year's. it was alright. went there to have lunch. the fruit stall aunntie was like "next year den come and buy more." i was like "okie sure. (hidden giggles)" yeah. sure. next year open house yea? met grace, eunice their frens, shuyu, cheukyin, melvin, weemin, wenseng, jeremy lim, their fren and saw jacky and his ahem leave juz when i reached the bandroom. tink they want to go SA. went courts after tat to buy new bedsheet. bought a pink. u can say hot pink bedsheet to match my hot pink coloured pillow case. kekek. now i have a pink bed!
totally unfocused tis week. easily get mood swings. one moment damn happy. den the next very unhappy. its very hard for me to actually feel happy. so try hard to be happy for as long as i can. try hard not to feel angry. but one samll little thing can spark off one whole load of unhappiness. so dun make me angry k? heheh. shall try harder to control my mood tis week.
had a nice dream juz now. it was really. the best out of tis whole week. had a nice plot and storyline. i treat each dream like a "mini movie" great way to destress i tink. no worries from reality.
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poof

2004-10-13T20:27:00.000+08:00

econs was basically okie. i felt. well. tink i will do well for today's drq and mcqs. becoz i wasn't really worrying abt doing well. i juz went in real calm and din really worry so much for my results anymore. it felt good. i juz wrote all tat i knew. satisfied. yes. wee~~~

went town after the paper with band ppl. saw brendan at the bus stop when i was on the bus. shouted for him. lol. so paiseh. "hi brendan!! mum was the one who shouted for you" =)
went town to eat chicken rice. cornelius, vig went crazy ate 8 bowls of rice together. madness. pigs!!! lol. den went back to sch.

yawnz. who would go back to sch after exams?!?!?! where's the parties man!!! lol. anyway. had really boring band prac from 1230 till 545pm. really boring!!!!!! phew. finally went thru it. anyway. rushed down to kap after tat to give weemin, shuyu eng notes and science notes. and some little notes of good luck for them. glowing starsssss. glow glow my stars!!! =)

had a great day today. had dinner with fam at the food centre near kap. never had such a nice dinner since before promos. i love popiah and laksa!!!! lol.

anyway. hey "someone"! sorry for the outburst yesterday! lol. din sleep well for the last few days becoz of studying and studying. resulting in mind games. lol. slept really well last nite. supposed to wake up at 3am to study. but too lazy to get up. kekeke. yup. sorry if i scared u. haha. i m well!!! again!!! i m alive!!!!!!! lol.

yeah!!!!! i m soooooooooo gonna enjoy my post promos programmes!!!! weeee~~~~~~ i feel gooD@! haha.

why do u ignore me?

2004-10-12T11:25:00.000+08:00

huh????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

wats happening? i seriously dun understand. at all. nope its isn't abt my exams or wat. i m surprised. thousand things flying thru my mind now. WAT JUZ HAPPENED??? i guess i will never understand wat other ppl are thinking in their minds. the change in attitude is quite. i meant VERY OBVIOUS. i can see. and i can tell. wat better timing. when i have so many things i need to take care of. arghhhhh!!!!! my brain is gonna burst! did someone said something? did someone made a comment? and i din even know abt it. leaving me to guess WAT HAPPENED? u only heard one side of it. how abt my opinion? do i tink its true or do i tink its juz plain CRAP. nope. no asking. no telling. i m guessing. playing in a guessing game which i always loses. life is full of guesses. i shud know tat very well. but THIS MUCH? it alwaysssssssssssss happened. hard to trust ppl. i m still thinking. WHo say wat? i hate back gossiping. i wun say stabbing. wat back gossiping has been ruining everything i have in life. say. the syf incident in sec2 year. and not exactly tat fantastic year in class this year. i have learnt to be numb. sometimes i get so sick of being numb. i feel like a zombie. devoid of emotions. ignoring the back gossiping. "perhaps they dun really know me as a person tat well yet. a few months only. juz study partners...." blah blah whole lot of excuses.i meant like wat can i do? confront them? i hate getting into more trouble and conflict. when i already have so much things to think abt in my head. but. YOU? i meant like! SHOCK! YOU? someone whom i think i could trust. and really feel at ease with. juz crap and let go and have some crap like "cows swimming?". now. i feel like. i was wrong. again. why do other ppl, other comments from other ppl easily prove me wrong? my hp is more than a free toll number.. HALLO??? *waves frantically* u are toking to a human on the other side!!! juz in case u din realise. i m more aware of my surroundings than you tink i m. being numb has made me shutup and listen and look ard. i have become so observant of the ppl ard me tat i always wonder. think. i m very sensitive to my surroundings. ppl misinterpret my words, actions and they twist it. does some perhaps untruth comments from other ppl really value more than the truth from wat i say? yes? den i m sorry. i m sorry tat u dun trust me anymore. perhaps not even from the beginning. i m sorry tat other ppl's comments can make u ignore me. i m sorry tat i can't guess wat u were thinking. i m sorry tat i will have tis one big question mark stored somewhere in my head which i have no clue it is. ever. sometimes i juz hate life. the power of gossip is too great. my words are meaningless. i m sorry tat i, as a person hold such little value as compared to the words of others. maybe i shudn't care anymore. i m juz guessing all these. it might not even be wat i tink it is. but when u leave me guessing here. i can only tink and guess. i dun know whether its worth making frens anymore. u aren't helping when u ignore too. thanx for the fun times we had though. tinking back makes me hate to give up all these. i dun like to lose contact with ppl i get accquainted with. why does it have to end tis way? so hard to be sincere and make frens. i dun wish to lose tis. if you get wat i mean. tell me wats going on???. clear the watever misunderstanding there is? no point guessing over my side and perhaps ur side too. yup.

got tis from some frenster bulltein.
FEBRUARY:Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal.. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted.Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt.Gets angry really easily but those not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp.Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside.Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

and now. time to worry abt my promos results, the rest of next year's plan and my health.

happy/sad

2004-10-04T13:45:00.000+08:00

weeee~~ way to go man! the sec4s did so well for their prelims! so happy for your! james. pro pro. beat paul lee's record. lol. melvin see u in cj next year. jacky pay. u gave me a fright. darn you. lol. was actually feeling quite tense for them. lol. anticipating who will go where. cj? ac? haha. anyway. good job guys! cool~

anyways. din sleep the whole nite. was cramming econs last min and din realise tat my eyebags were really bad till i went on the train to see my reflection. i thot my eyes were hollow. worse eyebags ever. something rather "interesting" happened last nite. ard 215am. someone(i shan't say who. u know who u are lol.)called me up. i thot it was my imagination tat my phone was vibrating(it was on silent mode under my pillow/blanket) or ruth was calling to tell me abt the liverpool match score which btw. liverpool lost 1-0 dang. nope it wasn't ruth. anyway. i was like "are u mad?" lol. apparently tat someone thot it was still 1215am. well. someone's clock was spoilt. time to change batts! and was insisting tat it was 1215am. i was quite sure tat it was 215am. lol. unless someone lives in India. which i sarcastically said. no offence! i juz find it damn funny! lol. anyway thanx for providing tat bit of laughter into my morbit reading of econs notes when u were so blur wondering wat was the actual time. lol. "pigs can fly" yup.

(stop reading from tis part onwards if u want to read only a positive blog...)

(nvm... read on...)

anyway did my econs paper today. horrendous. time management was really bad. did realise tat we had to hand in essay part b4 doing case study which i TOTALLY din expect. mid year they only collect every part of the paper at the end. i thot tat maybe i could eat into some of the case study time to finish up my essay. they collect it back b4 case study starts. i din do one part of one qn. 12 marks gone!!! and case study was like totally "eh? wat the heck is tis????" and the worse thing is tat in the hall( i was in the hall extension). the ppl only collected the essay part all the way at the end of the whole paper! which meant tat they had the chance to finish up their essay part. wats with the teachers at the hall extension?!?!? muz they collect it in the middle of the whole thing?!?! dang. gonna fail man. tis is so unfair. i rather do well in one which is the essay than do badly in both. my case study is really a goner. retaining sux. dang. dang. dang.

muz do well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! freak! okie enuff. gonna sleep 1st. head feels funny. one nite of no sleep. tats torture. hmmm.
anyway. caught some darn flu bug AGAIN from dunno who at dunno when. nose is like a loose tap. i have to constantly clear my nose. arghh. tat is like taking up so much of my energy. and wasting lots of tissue. it always happen either during exam or during holis. never once during normal sch days. crap. haha. shall take some flu medicine pill. hmmm. it says. "may cause some drowsiness" cool~ tats wat i need. haha. gone*

"i saw a cow swimming today..."

lfc.

2004-09-21T18:14:00.000+08:00

gonna spend some time to really mug all the way till promos are over. yup. have to suffer a bit now den enjoy the rest of the holidays. so I MUZ SURVIVE! crap. liverpool lost to man u. can't believe it. nvm. liverpoolfc is still GREAT!!! LUIS GARCIA(Luis Javier García Sanz) is coOL~

I LOVE L-I-V-E-R-P-O-O-L-F-C!!!! and no one can stop me from doing so!!!!!! =)))

a song tat will definitely inspire me to go on and on and endure...

You'll Never Walk Alone.

When you walk through a storm
Hold your head up high
And don't be afraid of the dark
At the end of the storm
Is a golden sky
And the sweet silver song of a lark

Walk on through the wind
Walk on through the rain
Tho' your dreams be tossed and blown
Walk on, walk on
With hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone
You'll never walk alone

yucks! drain!

2004-09-14T22:01:00.000+08:00

interesting day i shud say? enjoyed my day in sch. surprisingly. things are looking better now? hope so. anyway. was so tired when i woke up. din really wanna go sch. slept at ard 3am the previous nite or rather in the early morning. was watching "whose line izzit anyway?" had a great time laffing at the show. den sleep with the paranoid thought of having insects in the room. but was so tired tat i juz fell asleep after 3am. woke at 6am.

the things were quite the usual "tuesday" morning till the "mass pe" period. was deciding whether to go for pe which after much debate i went. it was well i would say "exciting" with addition of darkness and lots of cobwebs. we were made to crawl in a drain near the entrance of the sch. not tat u can stand up and walk thru the drain. was shocked when i saw the size of the drain. it was ard 1.2 to 1.3metres in diameter. and. it was. DARK. and it doesn't really help tat it was raining real heavily before that period. the bottom of the drain was wet and real slippery made by the algae plus mud plus "dunno wat else is there". T29 went 1st. which was much to our relief and they would have cleared most of the cobwebs inside the drain. and much to our dismay. the cobwebs seems to have regrown. coz there were still quite an amount of cobwebs all ard the drain. had to bend over and balance to walk more on the sides of the circular drain to prevent from stepping into the accumulated mudwater at the bottom. leg was aching from walking like tat. couldn't really support myself by holding on to the wall as there were lots of cobwebs there as well. few of the taller classmates were really suffering crawling in the drain. the air was really stale. crawled ard 150 plus metres bah. anyway after tat. everyone had really "nice" looking hairstyles with cobwebs on them. and it wasn't over.

went to climb some wall after tat. was wondering if the weather was playing a trick on us. before pe rain until so hard den it stopped den juz after the bell for the break rang. it started raining again. decided to make use of the rain anyway. to rinse off the cobwebs from the head. we ended up playing in the rain. it was FUN! lol. everyone wasn't thinking much of not getting wet but getting as wet as possible. went to bathe after tat. and for the whole day. 1T28 gals and boys were seen walking ard the sch barefooted. lol. everyone was like staring and asking why. relatively fun day i shud say.

shall go back to tidying up my room for preparations for promos!

mixed with trouble and joy.

2004-09-10T22:21:00.000+08:00

long long long overdued post. shall separate the post.

eve of teachers' day
woke up to a day of excitement. knowing partly tat today was gonna be a great day. and great week. one day of sch the whole week. yup. mon sch. tues teachers' day celebration. wed holi. thurs chi mock paper. fri gp mock paper. so was kind of relaxed and relieved throughout the whole week. anyway. went to sch knowing from other ppl tat the teachers' day(TD) concert was gonna be great. well. it was nice. and funny. the skit/musical put up by the J2 class was hilarious. esp when the part where michael tan came out. everybody was laffing so hard. the rest of the concert was great. the Indian Cultural society was cool man~ the hiphop dance they put up was so unexpected. it was of such high quality. @_@. yup. and ian sang with his band. din noe he could sing so well. a day full of surprises? went to the band room after the celebrations for comm meeting. which apparently turned out into a meeting of games. we were playing monkey and soccer. anyway. rushed to st nicks to meet up with alyssa.
stnicks remembered*
the feeling of stepping into the sch compund was so refreshing. all the memories came back. walking thru the gate. at father barres. into the canteen. it felt as if i neber leave the sch. everything was so familiar. walked down the stairs and turned into the canteen. eyes searched the place. found alyssa. saw jialin. put down my things and saw so many sec4s 2003 in the canteen. it felt really good. managed to persuade deborah to go back to stnicks. she was on her way back from RJ. yeah! so happy. it had been quite a few months since i last saw all of them. saw baofang. my "twin" sis with the same surname as me. she's still as corny as ever. saw yuying! still remembered deborah saying "huh? tats yuying?! why she chop off her hair?" her use of words such as "chop off hair" was really funny. went to tase some of the canteen food again. and in the mean time. some of sec4hope 2003 came back. so glad to see them. spent quite a while chatting with them. missed those times with them. amelia was getting kind of horny and lame. we were like "wat u gonna do when u are 21" she went like "yeah! can go watch r rated movies le" seriously. never felt so happy since the day i left st nicks. can say tat even though i was in cj. my mind was always wondering off somewhere to stnicks. felt so light and really happy for once. can't describe the feeling. it was WONDERFUL! saw mr wong and some of the teachers. wanted to go down to the band room and take a look but jialin and alyssa wanted to go town. so off we went. its feels kind of weird yet familiar to be going out with jialin and alyssa. it felt like i was still sec4. kind of reluctant to leave stnicks. went to heerens to take neoprint. and somehow our machine screwed up. ran out of printing paper and we got a pissed off lady to repair the machine. waited for ard like 30mins? or more. yup. den went off to marche to have a bit of "high tea" couldn't stay any longer after tat as jialin had to go off. so bid them farewell which i concluded it would be a very long period of time before we meet again. kind of sad. but things gotta move on. it was a positive day filled with so much fun.

holiday
well. it doesn't really seem like holi to me. had to go sch every single weekday except for fri. had econs tut on monday. chem on tues and wed. band stock checking on thurs. everyday juz passed like any other day. and tried changing the layout /template of my blog. spent quite an amount of time changing it. well. managed to change it. m i satisfied with the new template? yes. m i happy with it? no. dun understand why. somehow i felt tat changing the template was a bad idea. really bad idea. arghhh. but having spent so much time on it. dun tink its tat wise to change it back again. felt kind of misunderstood these few days. tired and sick. maybe. slept for a very long time today. as if no energy left. no kicks in life. slept from 1am to 2.30pm wokeup to have lunch wacthed tv for a while. din bothered to do anything else. lost interest in every other thing ard me. life sux. slept again till 7.30pm. well sick and boring day but had a nice dream. dreamt of watching liverpoolfc/england squad live in action at the grandstand. shook hand with milan baros, michael owen and steven gerrard. even had the chance to talk to stevie. the whole dream was great. maybe its a kind of a small present for me to relax in non reality. when in real life my life is really tat terrible. other than tat small little "present" of dream. everything else is sucky. and kind of falling apart. ever realising how much i hated myself. no particular reasons. it juz comest o this kind of day of hating myself. for being a moron and having a life tat sux so much. its quite comforting though to know tat i have pg and jacky to crap with. i m tired. need to take a rest. i wish. everything. will be so much nicer. so much better. worryfree? hope so.

"till we meet again sec4 hope... for u bring the most joy to me"

ocs...

2004-08-25T00:47:00.000+08:00

went OCS yesterday. its so darn cool! hmmm. maybe i will go there? stray thought. nuts. but the buildings there are cool. juz replace those OC wearing uniform with home clothes. and it will look like one big college. tiring day. slept at 956pm. missed "friends" by a mere 4 mins! arghhh. woke up at 1130pm only to realised i overslept. crap. slept a while more again. woke up to watch olympics gym. den finally "whose line is it anyway?" seems ages since i last watched it. gosh. hmmm. nothing much happened today. went for detention. was late for sch. tried doing some maths. kind of a semi failed attempt. hmmm. offline.

recording

2004-08-22T20:50:00.000+08:00

hmmmm. so much things happened over the past week. very tiring. the j2 juz passed down. and ian's officially been promoted to become our section sticker book! with the remaining 5 stickers. the new comm as according to some of the ppl. it seems non-political. which is good. well. most of the ppl in the comm i see are kind of lame and crappy. so. good! haha. tis band is gonna be real crap!. lol catering was good. except tat ordered a bit too much.

had alumni prac yesterday. went to some recording studio in tampines. i can't believe tat i played national anthem for 4 hours in one day. abt 25 times in a day. over and over again. tiring man. but it was okie. the mood was relatively light and funny. at least in our section the flutes horns and the oboe. the oboetist was discovering his new talent of folding his ears and holding them folded without using his hands. there were mikes all ard. and me and anne's sis pamela used the mike in front of us to say "percussion's fault" purposely. the perc ppl had ear phones on. so they heard it. they looked in our direction. but they can't do anything abt it. haha. they were in another separate room. we were sitting relatively far away from the perc. the feeling of suaning ppl and they can't do anything abt it was fun. haha. anyway. finally recorded the national anthem. took a while to record the sch song. din have time to record "yorkshire ballad" reached sch at ard 11pm. went to chiong town with anne, ming, vig, charles and imran for a while at lido. jimmy as usual was in town everytime i call him up. lol. he was catching a movie at ps. decided to go home really tired. took nightrider home. reached home ard 135am. slept a while on the bus. thank goodness there was nightrider. if not i would have been stranded in town. no taxis rides for me. definitely. alumni prac was fun. Weee~ called up ruth and crap with her till 4am. slept and woke up at 2 something tis afternoon.

hmmm. recording's real tough.

fireworks

2004-08-16T00:18:00.000+08:00

fireworks rox! so BEEEEEEEEE-U- tiFULLLLLLL. so inspiring. havta wait till next year and watch it again. esplanade crowded. but much spacious than last week. gotta do chem stuff. FIREWORKS! LIGHT up my LIFE!

dom says he's boring. gosh.

time gone

2004-08-01T22:51:00.000+08:00

time is passing so fast!!!!!! wooosh! was tinking on the bed last night abt some scene i remember suddenly: me getting out of the bus with my sn band members carrying our instruments waiting at the ave 2 gate to open and get into the band room. time ard 6pm? it seemed so recent so i started wondering when it was. den. SYF2003. which is 1 year back. m i sure it was last year coz it really seemed like a few days or weeks back. gosh. scary.

still felt like part of sn. not as an alumni but as a student. esp after going to the track and field meet. the things tat happened within the last 2 years seemed so fresh. i can remember every part and detail of it. tis afternoon suddenly found the "sn synthetic track opening ceremony" vcd. watched it. and the scene of me squatting down at the field and everyone else ard me doing the formation and dance flashed back. i was sec1 den. i could feel myself standing in the field the very moment in my room. looking at the audience sitting at the grand stand. the st john's gals standing at the ave 2 gate getting ready. my frens crapping to each other b4 the whole thing starts. saw the pri 1 kids wearing sia uniform parading down the track. so cute and innocent. den i started counting: they muz be pri 4 now. soon they will be pri6. pri to pri6. wat does tis mean? time is passing so fast. but why all the memories start coming out these 2 days? really feeling very curious at this happening. million questions running thru my mind.

i juz realised.

i missed sec4 hope. i missed crapping with alyssa, deborah and chewy. i missed snsb. i missed the aunties and uncles at the canteen stalls. i missed running to sec 4 diligence class looking for joyce and shermaine. i missed meeting yukching in the toilet routine. i missed standing in the middle of the field looking up at the sky. i missed walking ard st nicks late in the afternoon. i missed the feeling of being a st nicks gal. those were undoubtly the best years of my life. i missed home.

st nicks champs!

2004-07-28T22:07:00.000+08:00

wooo!
great day!!! ST NICKS WON DOUBLE CHAMPS FOR BOTH "C" AND "B" DIV AGAIN! beat the irritating sports sch whom took away some of our sch best runners. i say... i tink ST NICKS is the better sports sch than they are. no leniency to them for coming in C div second. after all. they are the supposingly SPORTS SCH rite? so it all comes down to ST NICKS being the best!

was able to get into the st nicks contingent at the grandstand after spotting miss choo and mrs quek going towards the entrance. we juz tagged along with them to get in. the boys guarding at the gate can't do anything. haha. got in and was cheering! love the atmosphere! juz like last year! memories! so fun! saw many of my ex classmates. and school mates. so long never see them. saw frog and dom at the sji contingent. i was reading the location of dom on sms" to my right" aloud den i turned and saw them rite in front of me. my schmate was like lameeeeeee. haha. i agreed. haha. slacked a while on the top part of the sji contingent with paul lee. saw paul goh and my son brendon there. luke was asking for trouble for critisizing st nicks. hahah. saw gareth and john. the view of the track from there was really good so stayed there for ard 30mins till the last few races finishes. haha.

the 4 x 400m for B div gals was the highlight and the coolest race! we were like at a point 100m in front of the second place runner. same scene. we won. juz like last yr. cool!!!!!!!! haha. tat was the highlight race for me. horrible weather i would say. rained heavily 2 times. everyone was soaked thru. but we continued after the rain stopped. totally fun! CJ track did not bad too! they came in 2nd and 4th for few of the events! cj had more supporters coming down than RJ. haha. today was damn cool! went home after tat. decided not to follow alyssa to BK at novena after feeling damn shagged.

st nicks cool! way cool! expect them to don tml's papers. however if the newspaper write some crap abt "sports sch 1st try. came in second. remarkable!" or watever like tat. i m gonna burn the papers. tat is crap man. if they are really sports sch. they shud be 1st. not 2nd. another failed attempt of sg trying to make singapore's sports the best. the best runners from st nicks went to sports sch in turn lost to us. wats wrong man? guessed is the coaching method. we st nicks still are one of the best with such dedicated teachers and supporting schmates. today. st nick really made my day however tiring i m now.

I m so proud of you ST NICKS!

renaissance

2004-07-20T00:50:00.000+08:00

renaissance. three words. fabulous. cool. interesting. everythingwas great. everyone enjoying themselves. one of the most fun filled concerts i went to. juz realised its my 5th yr to going to renaissance. cool. bought flowers ina rush. din count properly. short of a few. great concert i shud say. went for supper after tat. saw a few of the alumni ppl there. went home ard 1.40am. shall go to greaterr detail later. can't type without lights on.

eurooooooo

2004-07-05T22:53:00.000+08:00

the cheering and everything. so fast. juz like passing breeze. euro2004 finally came to an end. czech wasn't in the final. and i wasn't happy abt it. those clear penalty not given. booking not given. tat was really pissing. but anyway. it all comes down to luck. dun ever say luck doesn't play a play in things tat u do. coz they really do. for czech. few shots hit the frame. how unlucky can they get? anyway. greeks played a very "robotic" game. and they only know how to score from headers. as it seemed to me. cheap thrill. semi. they won with one header. finals they won also via header. from exactly the same way. right corner -> header -> goal. and if i m not wrong the game with france they won via header too. 1-0 quarter. 1-0 semi. 1-0 finals. boringggggggggg. wat a boring final. and yesterday. paul lee and jon peh were joking like how greece formations was 8-2. 8 defenders and 2 strikers. no midfielders. they weren't exactly wrong. coz u can see when portugal has the ball. suddenly 8 white players are in the box. 8 defenders. the portugal strikers are definitely snuffed out. greek's strategy. apparently it worked. yup. and they won. boring but when u are toking abt winning. who cares abt nice/fanciful football. but i would rather opt for beautiful football.

anyway. went jon peh's house with paul and jansen to watch the match. and i almost fall asleep watching it. all the time they were like criticizing how the white players played. scolding and a little shouting here and there. it was quite funny for me watching the match and them at the side with those shoutings. haha. they were stunned. when greeks scored. and when the final whistle went off. off were their money too. lol. paul as usual started yelling and cursing. tearing up newspapers. jon juz sat there. staring into space. i juz couldn't help it but laughed. they soon became hysterical. haha. as if they were possessed. lol. smsed my mum to tell her tat greece won. but she still called me up at 5.15. when everyone was sleeping. she also couldn't believe tat greece won. haha. it was real cold in the middle of the morning. air con was on full blast? opened my eyes a few times during the morning to see tat jansen's legs moved under the mattress itself. i was warm and cosy under my blanket. lol. air con went off after it was really freezing. anyway. slept for 7 hours. woke up at 12pm. den went off to kap to find shuyu. sat there and tok and drew some stuff. grace and gene came along. went for dinner and mum came to fetch me. tiring. came home to find tat comp is crazy. din bother to fix it. been dl ffx soundtrack from one very remote irc server. quite good. connections fast. and everything is there. no need to find. cool. and juz as i m saying. my dl server got disonnected. don't know where is she/he. and back. watever man. lol. okie. time for conf! oh! did i say tml's chinese exams? oops!

final fantasy?

2004-07-01T23:56:00.000+08:00

so distracted these few weeks. din exactly feel the tension from the exams and all. juz like my usual self. crap. gonna seriously flunk the papers. one by one. been playing ff10 all these while. clocking at least 6 hours per day. at most 10hours. wasted so much time. but m addicted to it. i m really living in a fantasy world man. playing and not studying. how ironic. and other than tat. its euro2004. and as expected. my fav czech rep. advanced with such nice football. cool. anyway ffx soundtrack is soooooooooo cool! nice. nothing much to say since my mind is wandeing off to playing ff10. haha.

long long ago..

2004-06-09T21:55:00.000+08:00

hmmmm.. super LONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNG time since my last entry. been pretty busy nowadays. for eg. juz returned from ltc camp. anyway here's a bit brief summary of the recent stuffs.

1st june - 4th june.
band prac everyday except for wed(public holi) from 9am to 6pm. which was really really tiring. everyday playing thru the same passages. hmmm. but got thru it.

5th june.
yeah! concert day! went sji early in teh afternoon at 12.30pm was late by 30 mins. hahah. but nvm. was kind of curious how come we had to arrive so early when the thing actually starts at 7.30pm. anyway. the concert was wat i would say a great success. everything was in place. maybe it doesn't really sound nice to the audience but from my point of view. it was one of the best which we had played. good job band! went to have supper after band which was like 12am when we left the band room. met jacky, weemin, zhezhang and shuyu at lido with vig. went there to sit for a while. den realised lido's closing. went to walk all the way from lido to selegie centre which seemed like miles away. went there to see only tat all of them were leaving. so in the end jacky went to meet his sis for pool. vig went off with shaun for home. leaving only me and weemin stranded there in the middle of the night so in the end we figured out tat we can take nightrider home while his dad fetch him from woodlands. we missed a bus so we waited 30 mins for the next one. crap. it was so late. and i was so tired. in the end reached home at 3.30am. slept till 9am the next day and was sick. down with a flu, fever and sore throat.

7th june - 9 june.
went to chiong the leadership training camp. was really sick on the 7th june morning. had a fever of 38.8 but still went on to go the camp. thot it was 7.00am so rushed all the way to school. met timothy on the mrt. he was going to his nyaa camp in malaysia. but had to report to sch 1st. anyway reached at 7.30am. den realised tat they haven't even assemble yet. reached in time! haha. cornelius din have a tie. which was bad. haha. anyway. they din really care. anyway. start of a camp which was totally different from sn band camp. gone were the days of air con sleeping rooms. movies. haha. anyway the food were not bad. sleeping conditions were not bad too. at least i could sleep. hahaha. 1st day was not tat tiring. had some external agency to come and "teach" us. had some misunderstanding with cornelius in the 1st part of the day. was really quite pissed off with him during tat. he was like "erm did u realised she's sick?!?" den i was getting quite pissed off becoz of tat. felt tat it was ridiculous. it wasn't my fault tat i wanted to be sick rite? anyway. cleared it up during the 2nd part of the day. cool~ =) hmmm.. anyway. 1st day was quite fun and relaxing. like they say the climax is always in the middle.

2nd day.
woke up at 6.15am. took a bus to macritchie at 7.30am. did 70 push ups 40 situps and 15 jumping jacks. den started the trek. the one at macritchie wasn't really tat bad. had to cross a river. was abt to step in SLOWLY. when cornelius pushed me from behind. in the end fell into the river. yucks. lol. there goes my shoes. haha. den after tat. the whole grp started running. wooo.. tiring. the climbing at bukit timah was really killing. so tiring. den was really sick at tat time. legs were losing grip. it was really very demanding at the whole part of climbing up and den down the slopes and steps. had to keep reminding myself to carry on. with my spongebob water bottle. in the end couldn't finish the last part of the trek becoz of my leg. took the shoes and socks off only to see blood in 3 of my toes. anyway. cornelius was really a great leader. he was a very good motivator. the rest of the grp turned out to be more united and fitter than i expected. cool~ woo. anyway. really. the most tiring day of my life!!!!! 20km! from 7.30am to 12.30pm.

2nd part of 2nd day
went to some rock climbing thingy at tanjong pagar. din realised it was air conditioned. lol. i thot it was tat kind of thingy under the sun. anyway. 1st time trying it. 1st try. bad. couldn't eevn get up near the 2metres mark. den realised tat i had to cut off my long nails in order o make my climbing easier. gone were my long nails. but up i went! managed to reach the top. tried out a few different climbing walls. but stopped becoz din really have any energy left after the trek. so i decided to stand and watch other ppl climb. did the vertical free fall. it was fun! den went back to sch. on the way back was talking to cornelius abt some of the most boring opics u could ever find. education? university? ns? tat kind of things. but it was relatively "enlightening". haha. anyway. had buffet catering for dinner! yummy! haha. couldn't sleep at night so went to the toilet secretly and talked to james and paul over the phone secretly. talked till abt 1am den decided was really very tired. went back to sleep.

3rd day.
reflections. i never knew tat i was someone who can really sit down and refelct and gain something good and new from it. but seriously. for tis camp. i felt somehow i have matured. dun laff. in a way or another. more aware of other ppl's needs. which was surprising. 8/10 for tis camp. for the camp teachers and facilitators. they really helped a lot! camp ended ard 1.30pm. met new frens during tis camp. very enriching indeed.
went to have lunch before going to band room for stock taking and cleaning. somehow i still had a bit of energy left. after tat. went to catch harry potter with anne, mingli they all. the movie was great! had 2 and a half hours to actually sit down in the theatre and enjoy a movie and relax. cool~ but was still feeling sick at tat time. went home to have a really good night of rest after all these hectic stuff.

10th june.
went out with paul, james and luke. watched the most STUPID
LAME SHOW EVER! "HOME ON THE RANGE" it was totally moronic! all thx to paul becoz he couldn't watch "the punisher" it was nc 16. lol. u can die from watching tat stupid cartoon seriously. dun EVER WATCH IT UNLESS U FEEL very rich and u got 1 hour to waste. haha. anyway. met joyce, shermaine, carlyn for qianyi's bdae after tat. went country manna to celebrate a really belated bade for qianyi. it seemed more like a gathering. lol. its quite amazing to see how after a few months. all the gals are wearing heels and skirts. so different from the sneakers/sanadals and pants a few months back. hehe. cool~ anyway tats roughly all i could remember for tat day. went home soon after tat.

wooo~ long blog i shud say. shall go offline now and watch "whose line izzit anyway"!!!
=]]]] life's a winner when u have got nothing to lose!

study

2004-05-27T12:22:00.000+08:00

okie! quick blog here. things gotta do tis afternoon. 1.cook lunch. 2.change the arrangement of the bed in my room. 3.study gp. okie. study study study!!!!!!!!!!!!

comp dead

2004-05-15T21:33:00.000+08:00

hmmmmm. great. now when i need the comp most. it "crash and burn" well literally. it crashed and blnked out aND i supposed the internal system burned. sad case. now how m i supposed to do my PW. great job. thanx to my great old sis to use the comp early in the morning. all the way to late afternoon. den rotate to my younger sis. until like maybe 9pm i will use it. and it continues days and days and days. week after week and week after week. month after month after month. okie. enuff. getting crappy. ahah. tats why i dun blame the comp for crashing down on us. anyway. so tat concludes the part on my comp. and tat is "SORRY GUYS. YOU WOULD NOT BE SEEING ME ONLINE FOR QUITE SOME TIME. so including the even more seldom updated blog. i shall try to blog more often. if i have the chance to. yup. until my comp is fixed. i shall concentrate on my studies and midyr."

life's been a bit tiring but its great! enjoy!

i want my sleep!!!

2004-04-27T22:05:00.000+08:00

was supposed to be doing gp essay NOW. but i m feeling so lazy and everything so i guessed gp's gotta wait. so here i m, sitting in front of the comp furiously typing away. *furiously furiously* *typing typing* okie. i guessed tats not funny. anyway. been trying to add mingli as my friend in tat darn friendster. been trying to do so for the past 20 mins. arghhh. the prob is i dunno her surname. ahhhH!!! been trying all sorts of surnames. ang, boon, chan, chen, tan, hang, zhang, teo, tang. u name it. i tried it all. even "hung" oh man. and all i see is tat "Sorry, that is not the correct email address or full name." arghhh. *bangs the wall*. wooo. blood is dripping out of my mouth. hmmm. or is tat the ketchup from the hotdog bun? oops! i did it again! -_-"" sheesh.

listening to "the legend of 1900" OST which i schemingly stunned from vig. okie. i din stun it. he left it in my discman and forgot to took it back. i m innocent. hahah. anyway. the OST is so FABULOUS. great composition. the moment i heard the 1st track. tears started flowing out from my eyes. such powerful and yet emotional music.Praise the lord for having such a man born in tis world to bring such great music to our ears. its unique in such a way tat it has clashing chords in the music. but it is to such perfection tat the clashes sounded so melodic. if i was to follow him and try to compose tis kind of thing. i tink the window panes would break and ppl would be deaf the moment they hear it. face it. i m not tat musically inclined until to such extent. 9.999 points out of 10 to the composer! come on. nobody's perfect.

tis week's gonna be a very very tiring week for me. tats wat the true meaning of 1st may labour day is for. its for me to take a nice long rest which means sleeping until 2pm and watching tv and slacking in front of the comp whole day. wooo~ looking forward to tat. my mind is psychoing me to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep. no i shall resist tat! *fights against a psychotic mind* eyes are inevitably closing on their own like spoilt lift doors. sheesh. guessed the psychotic mind won. WOOSH! the sight of ms nathan in my mind demanding me for my gp hwk tml got the upper hand in the end. hmmm. scary. *starts chanting: cannot sleep! cannot sleep! cannot sleep!* guessed brain is not working well today. too tired. committed a few sins by sleeping during maths lect. received news tat friday is speech day. j1 can come at 10am instead of 730am. and my class only need to come after 11am. yeah!!!!! ya rite. YEAH! so much for the yeahing. i have to reach school early in the morning to play the national anthem and the song. crap. the only plus point is tat i could see some of the j2s having fun. ya "fun" in the audit. i so wanna sleep late for tat day! mon i reached home at 830pm. tues which is today. i reach home at 830 too. had band sectionals till 7 something. den wed band till 7 den thurs is 510pm day. FRII!!! my only day of salvation!!!!!!! *gone* woo gone! why can't they play the cd recordings of the sch song and national anthem from the speakers? i m only needed there for less than 4 mins. and the rest of the time i will be wasting my precious and valuable time which i could put to greater and better use such as sleeping!. the difference is waking up at 6am and waking up at 930am. 3 and a half HOURS!!!!!!!!! *mumbles mumbles mumbles* nvm. i shall be a nice gal and go to sch early as a service to the sch.

hmmmmm... something tells me to go offline now. not sure wat. and do my gp essay and go to sleep b4 i faint in sch tml. okie. anyway. here's the inspiring quote of the day: "reach for the stars- and you will end up in a cold dark vacuum" enjoy~

VOTE FOR ME!

2004-04-22T21:12:00.000+08:00

decided to be a good gal and spend some time blogging if not ppl will be nagging me to. arghh. had a moderate day in sch today. nothing much happened. but a lot of things happened. ??? wat m i toking? eh. as in. i did a lot of things today. but they weren't exactly tat exciting. had a student counsel talk early tis morning. i can run for student counsel! they reopened the applications for the SC till monday. yeah! i missed the previous deadline. so tis is my last chance to do so. =) crap. went to take IC photos juz now wearing my sch u. now have to retake again. they want FORMAL sch u. so tat means plus the tie. crap. there goes my 6 bucks. dun tink its possible for me to draw the tie in myself. impossible. anyway. pe today was quite relaxing. ran 3 rds and did only a few jumps. i actually managed to go beyond 170cm. if only tis was last yr. crap. den erm. had the same usual lessons. chinese went to the lt to watch some performance. and on the way down. the guys as usual were crapping and laffing abt some magic stone thingy for bernie's hair. lame. den went down to the air rifle room to see mel shoot. den went home. tired and shagged. gotta go do my gp essay now. den catch "whose line izzit anyway" to have a good laff b4 sleeping. woo~

-vote for me! i m the "ultimate" choice. =P-

hmmm?

2004-04-20T21:38:00.000+08:00

blogging online. is so so so open. open as in everyone could see it. ppl u know. ppl u dunno. juz knew tat ben actually knew of my blog and has been reading it since jan 2004. which means. when i juz started tis blog! gasp! i din even know ben during tat time. *ben i know u are reading it now.* haha. blogging online isn't a bad thing but not exactly a good thing either. all my secret infos out. haha. i got no secret anyways. crap. haha. anyway.

hmmm.. one tiring day today. haven't blog for wat happened on sat. okie so here goes a very brief account of wat happened on sat. 17/4. 7am woke up. 9am went to harborfront mrt station late by 15 mins. den off to sentosa. went to siloso beach. had treasure hunt. our grp lost. haha. but is okie. took a dip in the sea. almost drowned. had leg cramp suddenly. drank a few gulps of seawater. sux. had the fright of my life. thot i was really dying. crap. thx goodness shaun tham was beside me. he asked me to cling on to him. phew. saved. thanx shaun. i know it sounds very drama-like. but still... thanx shaun for saving my life! hahah. den bathed and rushed off to the outdoor SYF. wasn't really tat nice as compared to 2 yrs ago. missed SJIMB's marching assessment. but i was sure tat they did very well. saw brendon. he waved to me. so cute! my son rox. SJIMB got distinction! congrats! haha. anyway saw Him. said "hi" to him. den shared a cab with rao to city hall mrt. rushed off (AGAIN) to st nicks for the sports day. as expected when i reached there, the thing was almost over. went with joyce to take train to orchard. she was going to SSC. by the time i reached orchard. 9pm. went to meet up with ruth and shuyu and linus and ruth's 2 frens. went over to esplanade to find the SJIMB kids. got there at 10pm. Melvin was having an eating competition with daniel. 3 sets of BK meal each. (drinks, fries, burgers) loser have to pay the winner 10 bucks. daniel puked. not sure whether melvin puked in the end. but it was really close. they were finishing the last set of BK meal. den went home.
okie tat concludes my one day of hectic running ard singapore.

20th April 2004

anyway. today. as usual. had mass pe today. ran 2.4km. crap. my timing sux! wanted to get below 14mins. but crap. suddenly had really really bad stitch during the last 2 rounds. struggled to run but i din stop. tat slowed down my timing. sprinted during the last 100m. actually not sprint. juz fast running. got a timing of 14.10mins. the boys were. man. crazy. so intimitated by them. they were running soooooooooooooo darn fast. melvin and desmond came in ard same time. ard 10 mins something. crazy man. den victor came in den ben came in. shud be abt tis order. anyway. during chinese lesson. bernie went crazy. he started taking all the rubbish from the bin and placed them ard the classroom floor. and he poured water on zhikang's table dunno for wat. i was like "wat the hell?" he's definitely getting weirder. anyway had econs test. oh my. it was so darn freaking hard!!! actually all trick questions. thru out the day classmates were crazy. singing songs. esp the boys. kept singing "one night in beijing" in those ah kua voice. wah lau. pengz. and some 5566 songs. and "come wat may".. i was like "how many nights do ur exactly want in beijing ah? keep on 'one night in beijing'" haha. and weiting is getting more feminine as each day passes. mind you. weiting is a guy. crap. monday he was wearing a hairband and today he has a small ponytail at the back of his head. ahhhhhhhh!!! wat is the world coming to???????? and melvin is slowly getting influenced by weiting. he was spotted with a hairband on his head today. they are definitely not gay or sissy. they are juz having fun and being lame. but it totally make me go "pengz. wah lau." anyway. went out with eileen, shijie, ben, vic, mel, desmond to have lunch at coronation plaza. den yanhui , karen and jan joined us later. after eating was the crapping part. totally laughed until no more energy. man. den waited for parents to fetch me. ben was waiting at the bus stop for bus 852. after a while(like maybe 20 mins?)he got so pek waiting so long for 852 tat he decided to take 151. izzit? i tink so. den the most pengz thing happened. after ben got on the bus. 852 came from behind. hahah. screwed up bus service man. den parents came. realised my wallet wasn't with me after i got on. went back to the plaza to search for it. was pretty scared of losing my wallet AGAIN. but thx goodness someone found it and left it at the counter. got it back. YEAH!!!. hehe.

okie. time to go get some rest and wake up later for the chelsea vs monaco match later on at 2.30am.
-we will win the war!-

tired tired me

2004-04-15T21:13:00.000+08:00

notti notti me. tired tired me. no time to blog. no time to blog. seriously no time to blog! its been like 11 days since i blogged! man. started the year out with 101% of energy. now mid april left with juz 30% energy. reasons for tis tiredness? i concluded.
1. sch's a killer! sch's is such a killer! its a silent killer. sch starts at 7.35am and ends at late afternoon. sometimes even evening. crap. not tat the hours in sch are long. they are really long! and in order to study well. concentration during lects and tutorials are VERY important. a lot of energy is den diverted to concentration. to concentrate for at least 8-10 hours everyday. is extra RESERVE energy channelled to be used in juz one form of activity after the original energy is used up. in simpler terms overloaded and depleted. overloaded with information. depletion of energy. upon reaching home from sch. a bit of tv den its hwk time! woo~ crap. sometimes hwk till 1 or 2am. sleep till 5.30am. den sch! wow. so fun. arghh.
2. sleeping. something which helps u to restore energy. good. but not neccesary. my bed sux! totally! the mattress's become all soft. sleeping on it every nite only end up having an aching body in the morning. stiffness in the neck. hurting back. crap. I NEED A HARDER MATTRESS!
3. MASS PE IS CRAP! if sch's without pe. my life would have been so much easier. more energy to do other things. seriously pe in cj involves a lot of running and running and running. doing crappy crazy exercises. pe burns my energy 4 times faster than doing other stuff.

okie. enuff of all these. beocz of tis tiredness i finally crumble to not waking up in the morning today. slept till 10.50am. den decided to go sch to do PW. reached sch ard 1.40pm. did PW during break den stayed for one lesson of chem b4 running off. saw alex kwee ard the corner so ran off via the staircase near t30's classroom. so interesting. took bus 132 to amk den changed to bus 268. got off the bus den saw 2 very familiar looking ppl across the street. AMANDA and JOYCE!! they looked so grey! haha. amanda's in aj uniform and joyce's in her nj uniform. went back to st nicks together. missed walking down those steps at father barre. missed enjoying the breeze in the canteen. missed the food stalls there(esp orange bowl)! went down to the band room. on the way down. the 3 of us were pretending to be late for band and how we were gonna get punishments from jialin. really missed those days. went to the band room and saw my section having sectionals. shuqi was a bit slow in response. she saw us and she went like "hiii.." -she forgot to greet us. haha. took some time and a few coughs from joyce for her to realise tat. haha. den went to see some of the other sections there. nothing's really changed in the band. the bandroom still stinks faintly. the ppl are still as crappy. musicwise ard the same. den qianyi suddenly popped her head in! she juz came from sch. chatted with them for a while b4 going up to the canteen to eat my fav "orange bowl" missed saying those orders to the uncle. haha. "uncle, guo tiao mian tang, yao dou ya, duo duo who jiao fen, yi dian dian la jiao" not forgetting the "xie xie". drank two cups of tea. peach tea and ice lemon tea. haha. the food tasted great! woo! den went to the staff room to look for the teachers. as expected not many of them were there. it was pretty late. den went up to last time 4 hope classroom. the stuff we painted are still there. the torch we used for last yr's haunted house was still on the teacher's table. den went to joyce's class to open her locker. she's kind of lousy when handing lockers stuff. haha. i opened her locker and we were pretty amazed to find tat the "meteor garden 2" vcd which she left there last yr was still in the locker! haha. den joyce started crapping abt how maybe the students took the vcds home and watched it and returned it. some vcd rental shop huh. haha. den carlyn and shermaine came ard 5.20pm. so long din see them. and they were quite soaked. kind of see thru. hehe. they juz arrived from ac from which they stood 10 mins in the rain under a tree waiting for the cab to arrive. haha. crazy gals! =) but really glad to see them. din manage to tok to them for long. parents came to fetch me at ard 6 something. went for dinner with mum. crap. my gals' day out gone. but nvm i will get to see them on sat. st nicks sports day. hopefully. borrowed joyce's maths induction notes to do. preparing for monday's maths test. den came home played on the piccolo for a while b4 coming online to blab on today's stuff. okie. enuff blabbing for today. gonna go study for econs test.
-st nicks rox!!-

learning.

2004-04-04T22:03:00.000+08:00

lazy lazy me. so long never blog. wat can i say. all i know is tat the past week has been quite tiring... sch's take up half of my day. reached sch at 7.30 go home ard 6. sometimes 7. crap.
hahah. thru this one whole week. i realised wat funny teachers they have in cj. hahah. they have a prob speaking. tats all. the rest of the other aspects are all okie. haha. gp teacher is funny. she's got a weird sense of humour. but tats fine with me. haha. chi teacher is the most comical one. he always "shhh" in the middle of his sentences even though the class is damn quiet. haha. he also goes "errr'ing in his sentences also. haha. and he wants us to "move like lightning" and "take initiative".. haha. so lame. and his jokes are always damn cold. haha. "own time own target. FIRE!!!" haha. only my class ppl will know wat tat means. haha. econs lect teacher. hmmm. she speaks funny. she doesn't pronounce "a" in her words. haha. den our econs tutor. he sometimes go out of tune. haha. maths teacher is okie. he's our home tutor. haha. chem is fine. one young lady. haha. anyway. the pe teacher is mad. he's crazy. make us run 11 rounds on thurs. and 5 rds with a lot of crazy exercises on tues. felt like going to the boot camp or wat. but really did quite a lot of work out the past week. went for track training on mon. so a bit of running there. tues pe. wed went for band orientation. so no workout on tat day. thurs is the pe. fri. no training. haha. cj really can get u real fit. haha. sat went for band. and juz heard tat cj shooting team got 3rd! congrats to the air rifle team! congrats to shimon who is top 9th in the jc catetory for singapore! u are way cool man! haha. yup. anyway. juz fiound one meaningful articel which i would like to share. (too lazy to type anymore things oso) haha. its kind of long. but it is interesting. so take some time to read and reflect on ourselves.

Do you remember when you first learned to ride a bicycle, or drive a car or use a computer? Depending on the kind of person you were and perhaps who was teaching you, you might have felt, let’s see…doubt, then nervous glee, then comfortable enjoyment; or fear, then resistance, then resigned acceptance; or excited determination, then frustration, then relief.

People don’t learn the same way. Not at all. Some of us are the “Show me, show me, show me everything” type.
Others are like: “Do I have really have to learn this? I was just fine the way I was.”

Or maybe: “Well, all right, I’ll try to learn this thing if it makes you happy, but as soon as I’m bored or confused, I’m outta here, all right?”

Or maybe, “I’ve always been curious about this, but I like to learn in my own way. So just go away, and I’ll call you if I need you.”

I could easily name twice as many learning styles, including the non-learner who says, “Me? Learn that? Forget it. I never needed to surf the net before, so I can get along without it just fine, thank you.”

Or the one who says, “Look, I’m up to my eye balls in messes right now, and I really have no time for learning new stuff. Maybe next week, when things settle down. I’ll call you, OK?”

Or the one who says, “I already have answers I like. Thank you. Go away.”

The eager learner, the independent learner, the cautious learner, the resistant learner, the anxious, my-pride-is-on-the-line learner, and the “no way, Jose, over-my-dead-body” nonlearner.

Right now, in the other rooms, on all three levels of this building, we have some new learning going on. Given the numbers of people involved, there are undoubtedly several learning styles at play. People differ.

Then you have to take into account the learning curve. People commonly use the phrase “learning curve” to refer to how long it takes to learn something. At work we cut the new guy some slack because it’s all new to him and, well, there’s a learning curve.

Actually, the term learning curve is more precise, especially in such fields as educational psychology and bioeconomics. It is a curve that can be graphed, referring to how productivity and efficiency go up in relation to gaining mastery of a given skill. You know how it is: “when I started out, it took me over an hour to do this, but now I can do it easily in under ten minutes.”

A paper I read recently studied how learning curves are complicated by external factors. What if your tools break? What if your co-worker calls in sick? What if you had a fight at home? What if your father or your child is in the hospital, and your mind keeps drifting back to what the doctor told you?

The learning curve, getting more efficient over time, is not the only equation at work in the real world. There’s also this equation: you + family + co-workers + deadlines + all your good experience + headache + a nice raise if you do well = how you end up doing. Life is complex, and even if we want to learn, even if we want to improve our learning curve, it’s all very complicated.
Right now, in the rest of the building, learning is going on, but those are real people in there, and who knows what happened between six and ten this morning in their households. How many want to learn or have trouble learning? How many are eager or stubborn? The subject matter in those rooms is God and Bible and Jesus and how to lead a good and holy and happy life, but the subject matter is also the heart, the soul, human hope and human fear, what we all need to thrive as individuals and as a community. That’s a huge amount of learning packed into forty-five minutes.

By the way, have I been talking about the children or the teachers? Learning is what they all are doing. The teachers have to learn the students before they can effectively teach them. And then they will find they have to look at their own faith with fresh eyes, because the children will shake loose their old notions and tease them into new learning.

But what about you and me? Are you a learner? I hope so. Because the curriculum of the Gospel is not like riding a bike; it’s not like once you learn you never forget. Once you get your Bible in the third grade or your Confirmation certificate, you’re not “done.” Building and growing faith is a lifelong enterprise.

As I look around at our congregation, i know that many people come to church hurting, and many are afraid, and people often look at the Christian faith as if it were a pharmacy. They want the holy pill that takes the hurt away. They want the potion that gives them peacefulness. They come in here focused on getting what they need, and often they do find it. They thank God for it, and go home. Well, we’re all like that sometimes.

And the Christian faith obliges, but the Gospel is so much more, and I always pray that more of us will expand our minds and hearts and souls to seek what God offers, to learn what Jesus teaches, to want what God provides - to go into deeper water as Jesus told the disciples. This is not a store where you shop for things that please you. This is not a movie theater where you are entertained. This is the Church of Lifelong Learning, to borrow a phrase, and to a Christian “lifelong” certainly doesn’t end with a casket.

But people don’t learn unless they want to and choose to. Do you remember that marvelous image of Jesus in Revelation, where he stands outside the door of our lives and knocks? “I stand at the door and knock,” he says. He will not break the door down or bargain or cajole or bribe or threaten or plead. He says, “Come to me, all you who labor and are over-burdened (all you who are frightened and overwhelmed, all you who are worried and confused). Learn from me, and you will find rest for your souls.”

When I encourage us to think about our own learning (on this day when a new Church School year begins, and adult education starts in two weeks), one problem is that some of us have less than pleasant memories of school. Do you associate learning with memorizing dates, doing frustrating complicated problems, studying authors whose words left you empty? Today we understand so much more about learning disabilities and learning styles and the crucial importance of being ready to learn with a good breakfast and without getting bullied on the way to school.

But twenty years ago? Thirty? Forty? When my father was in the second grade he was kept back a year because he couldn’t pronounce a hard “L” sound; in his mouth it was always a soft, hollow “L.” So the school made him repeat a year, although his pronunciation of that letter never changed throughout his life. Years ago people who found school painful met with far less understanding despite genuinely caring and professional teachers. Remember sixty years ago doctors smoked, thinking it was a good way to clean the lungs.

So maybe you hear about learning opportunities today and reply, “No, thanks. I finished school years ago. Thank God.” How sad. So much to discover, so much to savor. So much to help us deal with life more constructively and with greater satisfaction.

When I teach the parables of Jesus, people are always drawn into lively discussion, because Jesus knew how to tell a story that brings people to the threshold of new insight. (Whether they cross the threshold is up to them). All their personal characteristics are revealed, their prejudices, their forgotten dreams, their immobilizing fears, their rich compassionate heart, their thirst for justice, their fertility of soul. He was the Master Teacher.

And what about Jesus himself? Have you really figured out who he is, and what he means? Have your ideas changed in the last ten years, twenty, thirty years? I hope so. If you think today what you thought in 1978 or 1958, if despite your accomplishment in other areas, if today you still think like a sixth grader or a college sophomore - that’s stagnation. It’s not uncommon for me to meet people who have a very advanced proficiency in various areas of life, only to have an eighth grade under-standing of religion. Even some believers have contented themselves with an elementary grasp of the Gospel, when there is so much more. We are called to grow in heart, mind and soul.

But God knows that people are people; life is complicated. A Christian + family + job pressure + financial worries + ...well, it goes on and on. But God understands. God knows how much we sometimes just want to make it all go away. But God also knows how much of life awaits us, how much rich joy can be ours down the road.
That’s why in our reading from Isaiah we find these words

Morning by morning God wakens, wakens my ear
so that I may listen as those who are taught.
The Lord God has opened my ear, and I did not resist.

You see, God is the rooster who wakens us for the dawn of a fantastic new day. God is the alarm clock which rattles us out of sleep and calls us into engagement with the world. God is the nudge from our bed partner, the one we told to make sure we get up. God is the wake-up call from the front desk because we said we have to be up by six. God is the internal alarm clock, which rouses us the same time every morning no matter when we went to bed. God is reveille, trumpeting us to alert attention. God is the smell of coffee wafting under our nose, the aroma of bacon in the kitchen. God is the sound of the beep-beep-beep of the trash collectors, when you realize that you forgot to put out the bins. God is the bell in school which says it’s time to be alert and be a learner.

Morning by morning God awakens us to live and to learn about life and love, about salvation and hope, about joy and fulfillment, and what a shame if we just roll over and go back to sleep.

tennis guy.

2004-03-26T23:57:00.000+08:00

today was crazy day! one moment very fun one moment very sad. crap. haha. the events in sch weren't really tat nice. screwed up some stuff. went for CCA fair. went a bit crazy. signed up for odac, track and band and student counsel. i muz be crazy. haha. den orientation grand finale. blah blah blah.

den went off for class outing. altho it was only like me, tiff, janice, yanhui, zhikang, ben, shijie, vic, desmond and shimon.. so wasn't really a class outing went to pastamania. ate some country baked pasta or something like tat. it was okie altho it tasted a bit weird. sat there and listen to the guys go on with their racist jokes. damn bloody racist man. haha. damn cold and lame oso. walked all the way to youth park. apparently there was something going on there. for the jc1 cj students. went there it was like quite empty. we were a wee bit early when we reached there. soon a lot of ppl came. and we started playing dare or double dare. it isn't like the normal dares like stupid dance or wat. it was damn scary. haha. beyond wat i image. u get guys piggy back gals and run ard the whole place, guys using only their teeth to get things from the gals' mouth. so damn crazy! haha. i oso kanna some crap lahz. all thx to shijie. i was asked to lie on the ground and they asked one guy to do push ups over me. oh my.. it was like so embarrassing. he was like so damn closee. oh man. haha. but the guy was very sporting and nice. he did 15. and he doesn't smell bad. haha. i thot he will be like stinky or wat. he smelled like he juz came out from the shower. amazing considering cj is a place where u will sweat buckets everyday. haha. and he's kind of cute. and he's the tennis captain. so cool~ hah. dun get me wrong. i m not interested in him. juz find him a very nice guy. crap. i dun even noe his name. haha.

we went off ard 10. went to heerens den 7 eleven. den walked all the way to ps. more like to Db mrt. den went home. reached home ard 1140. was damn shagged but today was damn fun. the whole orientation was great! cj rox man!

cj

2004-03-25T21:50:00.000+08:00

wow! juz realised tat i haven't been blogging for the last 9 days! gasp! wat happened to me?!?! lol. anyway. its juz tis whole week has rather been a very tiring week for me. no strength to actually sit down and start blogging. anyway. here's an update: i m in cj. taking science. with combination of maths, econs and chem. was in og 18 now in t28. totally enjoyed tis orientation. its sooooo fun!! but its also damn tiring. been reaching home like 6 plus each day. been sleeping like an average of 3.5 hrs each day. gosh! i m soooooo DEAD! so i m like walking ard like a zombie. mind sometimes catching a wink. but anyways. got into the combi of my choice. so i can say i m quite lucky.

1st look at my class. i was like "eh.. they look very quiet and boring leh" but den. like the saying goes. "do not judge a book by its cover" soon after we settled in the classroom. the craps started coming out. example. mr lim. our home tutor. asked shijie. our HTC. "do u tink she will be coming tml?" (for the dragon boat thingy. we need to confirm whose going.) den shijie replied. "sir i m not psychic. how i noe whether she will be coming tml?" dotz. tat was juz one. shijie. like to tell damn lame and BrrrRrrrrR COLD jokes. but he's damn entertaining lah. haha. victor is our AHTC. who oso has quite a number of cold jokes up his sleeves. zhikang is the shaolin monk. longxian is the kungfu master. ah. and theres the cat high boy who is desmond. always kanna rolled over at the "push ball" thingy. weiting. the sleeply and blur looking boy who actually is not tat sleepy as he seems. ben is the liverpool fanatic!!! woooo!!! liverpool rox. we got great taste for football club. hahah. he's also damn bloody racist. lol. can't blame lahz. sji. lol. den theres guo ren. who is like kind of quiet. so dun really know him. and the new boy melvin who juz came today. well.. the gals are much more simpler. we are the normal but active and hyper bunch. haha. our class can be considered as one of the more fun class. and shimon is our faci. he reminds me of someone. but i can't remember who. anyways. our family, humilis. is damn nice.

went for dragon boating on wed. its really damn nice. dragon boating as one class. u dun really get to do it often. tiring but it was worth it. everyone was having so much fun. all the gang banging splashing water on the other boats. the racing. and juz sitting in the boat floating on the water. really. wow! wed was really class bonding. did everything as a class. part of the orientation was also the much dreaded MASS DANCE. i can't dance for nuts. haha. i will either step on ppl's feet or turn to the wrong side and end up banging against otheer ppl. hahha. tml is the grand finale. woo~ cca fair too! dunno which CCa i shud join. sports? thot of joining Odac. haha. i muz be nuts. maybe i will join band again.. yup.

shall go and watch "whose line izzit anyway?" love tat show. haha. and maybe sleeep. been really lacking sleep..

-cj is like "wooooo~~ babY!!!" and 1t28 is like "oh mannn!! wat crappers!! soooo happening!!!"-

french?

2004-03-16T00:35:00.000+08:00

hahah.. been learning french for the past 2 days. damn fun. hahah. never knew learning another foreign language is so fun. open up my view on the world. prepare myself for the outside world. i know it will take some time to really understand the concept of the diff language which i will learn later on. espanol. lovely. german. interesting. and of coz. czech lang. cool! shall learn all these. hehe. fun!!! learning has never been so fun. hahah.
anyway. went for the chalet today. i thot starting it was kind of boring. but actually it wasn't. it was juz things are going at a slower pace at 1st. den things began to pick up during the bbq. was playing daidee with alina, mel, joel and one of erman's fren, clement? haha. i tink so. anyway. me being the pro. won quite a few times. hahah. =P den i went out to bbq for a while. teared quite a few times becoz of the smoke coming out of the pit. hahah. it was fun. i remembered saying "i tink my eyes are gonna be cooked". haha. thru out the bbq. we had music playing from jon's mp3/discman player. nic got scolded by leonard a few times for changing the tracks tat they tink are nice. alina too got scolded. haha. it wasn't really scolding. in fact it was funny. den we went off to the beach to avoid getting hit with water bombs by the stc gals. haha.only went out for a while before returning to the chalet. picked up a kite on our way back. it flew! hahah. den dunno why. but mel and alina decided to play water bombing too. haha. weird. joined them for a while. den sneaked attack bomb on vanessa. in the end i had to hide a few times from van. hahah. den decided to go home since alina not staying as well. shared a cab with alina, clement. we all got off at yck. clem got off at motorola. alina got off at the bus stop oppo her house. me. i got off at the mrt bus stop. took mrt and reached home ard 1145. which is very early considered we left ard 11pm. so fun. this chalet is not so bad after all! heheh. =)

hmmm.

2004-03-14T21:37:00.000+08:00

hohoho. nothing. gunbound! ethan peck is so cute. dotz.

where are you?

2004-03-14T00:24:00.000+08:00

woke up in the morn at 11am. smsed jacky abt sentosa. and he called back to say he's there already!. dotz. rushed all the way down. reached there ard 1230. frog stayed with me to go see my younger sis while the rest went back to sji. hot. humid. tats wat sentosa was. saw the band parade. saw my sis. saw shuyu. saw sean. din noe he was the dm already. impressive. lol. den went to sji to look for my son. which was not supposed to happen. they are having a camp. in the end went home without seeing my son. crap. was walking home from the mrt. so tired and everything.

listened to a1's "caught in the middle" while walking.
"Thoughts of you are in my mind always
Like a memory that I can't erase
It's here to stay"

dunno whether it was becoz i m damn tired or wat. felt so miserable. but juz thot back of wat really were the happiest days of my life. missed it so much. din even bothered to look at the traffic while crossing. seriously courting death. maybe subconsciously i was trying to find an end to all tis pain and misery. i always thot i had it under control. always thot tat i din really care for these 2 months. always thot tat watever he does i dun give a damn. but every inch inside of me is dying to know wats he's doing. how's he's been. the missing link in my life. i have been really feeling so miserable these 2 months. how ironic it was for me to tell ppl wat to do in my previous blog. i can't even do things rite. i guessed tis is the time where every mixed emotions and feelings comes out. the most scary but inevitable thing has come. depression.

it feels really horrible to be alone for so long. i know tat frens are there for me. but. it feels different with him ard. i felt i lived a life more complete. been running away from the truth tat "my life is a mess without him".. my life now is like a never ending storm. hardly ever finding peace with myself. always tossing and turning. it was him tat brought me to a nicer world. a world where i know everything will be fine with him ard. but. all these are gone. worse thing is tat. up to now. i dunno why. i feel angry at myself. den i feel angry at "tat sch" 's ppl.. i felt tat it was them who destroy my world. my life. they took something important and priceless away from me. they dun seem like nice ppl to me. they feed things into his mind. bad things abt me. I HATE THEM! why muz they do tis to me? take away wat little i already have? but i always remind myself. " dun be childish. it might not be their fault. " but. if i dun blame them. where else could i find the reason for this destroy? i feel unjustified. i can't run away from tis. its always at the back of my mind these 2 months. i want to have peace. but i juz can't help tinking abt him.

it really have been nice if i could sing the song "somewhere out there" to myself. and smile fondly to myself. as i sit here and type the blog. it was really hard. the lyrics from "somewhere out there" keep making me feel really lonely. alone in the world.. by myself.

i dun want to lie to myself anymore. i really really missed him.

bitter sweet...

2004-03-11T21:06:00.000+08:00

juz changed the template. decided to go for something nicer. sweet. plain. nothing much to do today. slept at 5.47am last nite. or shud i say morning. watched the real madrid match. quite expected it was real tat will win. anyway. after looking thru some of other ppl's blog. juz realised tat.

*tis is dedicated to those of my frens who feel tat love is hurting for them and things are getting weird for them*

-Changing environment.-
some of us who come from single sex sch find it quite hard to handle the things tat co-e sch have in store for us. like seeing gals or boys as their classmates for the 1st time in 4 yrs. some may even come from single sex pri sch. so tat makes 10 yrs. it will definitely feel weird. some welcome tis. some dread it. but its also interesting to have the oppo sex ard. u discover some new things u never see in ur whole life. like how some boys can actually gossip better than gals(there's always the belief tat gals gossip the most. most up-to-date. rubbish.) gals actually reads FHM. serious? yup. there's a whole lot more. boys and gals are after all human. like animals(sorry to use tis comparsion). we are curious abt the new things we see.

juz like a kitten playing with a thread ball. 1st time it sees it. the kitten is apprehensive abt going near. it tinks "is the blob of thing there(it doesn't know its a thread ball.its a kitten after all.) food? play thing? enemy? wat izzit?" so after much thoughts. it slowly approaches the thread ball lying there. harmless rite? 1st touch at it. it doesn't fight back. kitten tinks. kitten plays. kitten gets entangle with the threads. kitten gets tired from struggling to get out from the threads. kitten stops struggling. waits along for a 3rd party to help.

tis is juz like us. we are the "kitten". the oppo sex "thread ball".. when we 1st see the oppo sex. we tend to stick with our own sex. strength lies in unity. but eventually. some stray to find out more abt the other sex. curiousity. soon. they find out tat the oppo sex are fun. full of interesting stuff. but some falls in the web of "love".. which they can't help. some end up as couples... but for those who dun. when they realised the other side doesn't feel the same way. they try to retreat. but like the kitten. they found out tat they got entangled with the strings of love. they try to get rid of it. but it juz seems to become worse everytime they try to get rid of the mess. they end up getting hurt. and the 3rd party comes
along. their frens. most of the time frens of the same sex. they are there to help them out.

along the way. fun. happiness. fondness. love. anger. heartaches. sadness. despair. most important of all. they learnt something from the whole experience. life is a learning journey. however bitter or sweet.

so dear frens. i have seen ur plight. for those who uncontrollably got into the role of the kitten. pls dun feel miserable. pick up urself. allow some time for u to heal. human's heart are unfortunately made in such a way tat its so fragile. dun live in the past. the past does not hold any happiness for wat u will experience in the future. and most important of all. dun be scared of the oppo sex. u might have been hurt. but. dun kill the whole flock of sheeps juz becoz there's a sick one there. (they are not bird flu). anyway. we are still young. there's time for us to really get to know the oppo sex. no hurry. take ur time. dun rush into things.

to all my frens out there. enjoy ur life! like i have said. something good is bound to appear even in the harshest environment. take care & god bless~

hmmm..

2004-03-06T00:04:00.000+08:00

today was a real tiring day.. went to sch in the morning to get withdrawal form.. went for srp den went off to have breakfast near beauty world with van, dan, the farisn, jiaren and shamus.. its was too early for pool anyway.. so in the end went to conference centre and looked for donovan and the rest.. they were playing cs at the lan gaming.. they are so damn funny. the way they played is lie so comical. all so "evil" and "cunning".. really laff a lot while watching them.. hahah.. anyway.. went to pool factor ard 10. waited for a while b4 the shop open. as usual. we were the early birds.. opened 2 tables. victor joined us soon. and victor and shamus went parring on one table by themselves. let the pros play among themseles. we the newbies took another table.. pretty fair luck today. some good shots. bad ones. and some tyco ones. stayed there for like 4 and half hours. felt so darn sleepy. moment i reached home. bathed. BED. slept till 8 something. den woke to eat dinner. and now. play gunbound! can't live without gunbound for a day! its so fun. i even dreamt of it. now every ball games i see. i will go like "NS. NS." which means nice shot. crap. too addicted to gunbound le. hahaa. but its fun. so who cares. haha.

gunbounder~

hmmmm?

2004-03-02T13:02:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. been such a long time since i blog. kind of lazy nowadays. hehe. anyway. got my results. like duh~ hmm.. i got 19. good but not great. considering tis yr a lot of ppl did so much better than me. now. muz get all As for my alevels. at least i wun feel so pathetic next time when i grow up looking back at my sch life. haha. yup. 19. where can i go. 1st thought. cj. but next u have ppl like shaun tham telling me dun go cj. go appeal for ac. i m like "wat? ac. are u mad? i got 19. not 15 or 16. how to appeal." but tis few days have been tinking a lot. even thot of appealing for ac. but i remember saying tis to myself. " if i get less than 16 i will appeal for ac. if anything more than tat.. straight to cj" so i guessed cj is my 1st choice den. i mean like. it wun be tat bad rite? something good is bound to appear even in the harshest environment. listening to "god must hate me" by simple plan. gave a lot of thot abt it. nah. god loves me. he gave me a chance to go jc. and i m satisfied already. he gave me another chance again. thank you O lord. maybe i shud seriously considering going back to church. somewhere near my house. where i can really commit my time to Him. hmmm.. having my lunch now. juz learnt from dad to cook something new last nite. it taste pretty good. hehe. i m such a good cook~ haha. really loveeeeee cooking. haha. but i wanna be a psychologist. maybe i can be some part time cook. hahah.
recently got into tis gunbound craze. everyday. gunbound. but seriously. its so fun! hehe. i m kind of slow to follow in tis kind of craze. tink other ppl caught it like last OCT. and now. march. tats ard like 4 months lag. haha.
anyway. juz checked my friendster. and jean sent me a few msgs. felt so guilty not sending her off when she went off to aussie. and felt so bad and disappointed with myself. for not doing well for my prelims and even my Os.. becoz i want her to know tat her SP is a very hardworking and clever gal. but all my results show juz one thing = laziness and not hardworking enuff.. felt like i have let her down.. dun dare to tell her. tink she expects a lot of me. but i can't deliver. becoz i have not been hardworking enuff. HOW? but i muz reply her somehow. dun wanna let her down. haiz. dilemma.. help! okie okie. i shall tink of something soon..
off to gunbound again.~

2004-02-27T08:33:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. in the sch library now.. decided to go sch today. nothing to do at home anyway. actually juz wanted to have perhaps one last look at my frens who i have befriended in MI over these past few weeks being leaving.. but as expected they are not here today. in fact. most of the Pre-U 1s aren't here at all.. tink only less than 70 ppl turned up. its quite a funny sight. to see the quad so empty of Pre-U ones who usually dominated the court with our sheer size of close to 1000. so ironic. guessed at tis time. most of them are still sleeping at home.. saw shamus tis morning and he's like "there's a lot of oxygen today". haha. its really funny. the Pre-U 2 and 3s were like staring at us. like some aliens. haha.

*i miss them* really i do.. i started out at this sch tinking tat everything sux. including the ppl. now it all juz seemed like a dream. was sitting on the bus yesterday traveling home when i started feeling like crying. but i din of coz. but really fought hard to hold back the tears. doesn't really help tat i was listening to "where is the love?" tinking of how we 1st know each other. pon classes. have our break together. toking of little secrets we have. looking at ppl we tink are cute. running ard the sch. avoiding teachers. hiding in the toilets and library. toking and having fun in lects. getting scolded by teachers. juz dun give a damn abt the things in sch. disturbing ppl and scaring ppl off. playing pool after sch. go town. juz plain having fun. all the funny characters walking ard in sch. like top4million, butthead, 3quarterpants. elephant. tofuman. all these. really gonna miss all of the ppl in MI.. juz wondering. will our lives ever cross one another's paths again. its really a nice experience for me since dunno how long ago. really enjoyed and had lots of fun. i was even looking forward to sch. now sitting in the library typing these. really dun feel like leaving all my frens. but i noe tat all of us will eventually go to different schs. maybe some of us will meet each other. but nothing can be compared juz sitting ard in sch and having fun. esp in the canteen even though the food is not really tat nice. where me, mel, alina, vanessa, erman, wennie, nicholas hee or ang, thomas will sit there and rot. really gonna miss all of them. every single one of them. they made life enjoyable for me. the company they gave me. to all the frens i have made in MI. Thank You.

really feeling the tension now. juz wished to get less than 20 and finish off my A levels in some jc. juz a few hours more. i hope i will be jumping for joy. really hope tat i m tinking too much and tat the standard of marking is too hard tats why i m counting so much. lets hope so. never knew how my life would change after the papers in NOV. really. its always. i wished i could turn back the time and do something abt the papers again. always wanting a second chance. seriously. if i dun get less than 20. i dunno wats my plan after tat.. i dun really want to stay in MI. but i oso dun really want to go ploy. i dunno wats ahead of me. juz less than 20 i will be satisified. really. now all i can do is juz pray. can't do much anyway.

26th feb.

went to sch early in the morning. slacked my time off in the library until 945 and went off with jon, shamus, victor, scott?, daniel and one farsian to play pool at somewhere near beauty world. met mel on the bus there. it was quite fun seeing everyone having so much fun. we were the 1st in the place. alina and vanessa joined us after tat. went for lunch at beauty world ard 1. quite fun. went home to slp den woke up almost got the fright of my life tinking tat it was the next morning and i had missed taking my results. phew. it was juz a dream and it was only 6.29pm. haha. toking abt scaring urself too much. haha.

lets juz hope tat everything goes well today. god bless me~

prayer~

2004-02-27T00:29:00.000+08:00

HELP!!! tml's the DAY!!! i m scared.. i m. hope to get less than 20! if tats possible! shall blog wat happened on 26th feb later! so many things happened! so not enuff time to blog now! pray for me! god bless me~

sick

2004-02-23T18:30:00.000+08:00

today is horrible. totally. its such a shitty day. some things went too far.. now it doesn't seem funny anymore. maybe its becoz i was already feeling sick the moment i woke up. den din have the energy to really handle the things placed in front of me. but i m seriously very tired and sick. juz realised tat i din eat anything since 11am. and gastric's acting up again. and head having a real bad headache. feel so weak. crap. maybe i wun even go sch tml. dunno how to face those ppl. juz wanna dig a hole in the ground and hide in it. my reputation is totally gone after wat happened today. and i thot during the weekends i was gonna have a great day on mon. crap. its not. its totally screwed up. never felt so screwed up since 5th feb where i offended some ppl.. now i din even do anything. ah. so shitty. dun want any trouble in my few remaining days there. juz wanna leave with happy memories. dun tink its possible now. shudn't even have gone sch today. crap. whole body is breaking down. maybe i m gonna die or wat. at least its better than facing those ppl.. goodness. tis joke is so not funny anymore.

johnny, mel and alina.. how lame can u be?~ heh..

2004-02-20T23:31:00.000+08:00

decided to blog when its like haven't been blogging these fews days.. haha.. juz woke up... took a nap after i reached home today.. so tiring.. leg still hurts for no apparent reason.. haha.. din exactly go sch today.. woke up at 5.30am today den decided to slp thru it when it was time or sch.. damn tired and all.. woke up at 8 something in the end and went to sch.. managed to get to sch at 1030am.. met mel they all in sch.. in the end skipped maths lect and gp and went to crashed econs lect.. "we muz be mad" haha...but it was okie.. coz we were toking all the way in the econs lect.. and vanessa was torturing "mentos" with her notes.. "mentos apparently hid under the table in the discussion room when vanessa pop her head in" and shamus decided to be bzbody and edited the replies in the note tat was being passed ard to mentos.. haha.. mentos and shamus in the end got warned by the "william hung" lookalike teacher mr lee for toking too much.. hahah.. sat next to jonathan who is quite a lamer.. hahah.. mel did something horrible to my poor book... and i had to use liquid paper to cover it up..
went to town with erman, mel, alina, daniel and jonathan.. haha.. we were sitting in such a way on the bus tat alina was sitting with daniel.. haha.. erman quickly ask mel to sit with him and jonathan to sit beside me.. so leaving alina to sit with daniel.. haha.. thru out the ride.. jon was like toking all those crap.. wat "10 inch" and the cup (only the ppl sitting there will noe).. haha.. den went to lido to wait for dan.. den went to some singtel building behind somerset mrt to play pool.. francis was already there with his fren.. so went there.. the ppl working there so unfriendly and all.. all bengs and lians.. damn irritated with them.. anyway.. stupid jon and dan say they newbie at pool den they keep thrashing us... idiots. hahah.. anyway had some fun there... jon is like damn pro lahz.. newbie my foot.. hahah.. he played with francis and his fren and won them 2 out of 3 games i tink.. den wennie and her fren dephne joined us for a while den we went to taka's coffee bean.. saw some ppl i used to noe but din say hi.. can't be bothered anyway.. hahah. mel alina they all bought some drinks.. den jon followed me down to watsons to buy hair band.. din really find any nice one.. but settled for something in the end anyway.. dunno wats wrong with mel.. hahah.. kept asking jon to "meet my parents".. coz i said i was supposed to meet up with my parents for dinner and mel asked jon to follow me to meet MY parents.. out of point.. *rolls eyes* hahah.. anyway went home with jon only.. mel and alina they all were looking at some shoes and they din exactly appeared to be going home YEt.. and jon had to go home so we boarded the train without them after waiting for 10mins for them.. on the train i concluded tat jon is a horny, lame and sick guy.. haha.. and he protested tat he's only lame.. haha.. jon got off at amk.. i reached home only to feel damn shagged.. juz fell aslp.. still damn tired... okie.. shall finish off here.. fingers getting tired too! hahah..
-we rox the world~...-

simple plaN~

2004-02-15T23:27:00.000+08:00

nothing much today... juz watched simple plan on tv again..

SIMPLE PLAN rox!!!!! pierrie,seb,jeff,chuck,david~ love you guys!

mtv asia awards~~~

2004-02-15T01:16:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! woOo~~~~ juz came home... had a SUPER DUPER great day today!!!!! woke up at 1030 only to realised tat i was supposed to meet alina they all at 11am.. so decided not to go nyp open house.. went yck mrt and met them instead.. den met mel at city hall b4 going to kallang.. reached kallang at 1.30 den din noe where to queue up for the mtv aa tixs so in the end queue up for the red carpet tixs... saw linus and his bro there... they got the tixs already!!! anyway.. the sun was so hot!!! den in the end went over to the other side and waited for daniel ong to come.. he came at 3.00pm and we had to play some games in order to get the tixs.. it was so darn crowded.. so many ppl squeezing.. arghh.. so sticky.. anyway.. din manage to play the 1st few games... waited till ard 4 something.. den daniel ong asked for a sock for some hunt thingy... i juz ripped off my yellow sock and started waving like mad.. haha.. he saw me and gave me 2 tixS!!!!!! my patience paid off!! woo~ hehe.. i was like " thank you so much!" actually was so happy tat i wanted to give him a kiss~ haha.. but decided not to anyway.. hahah.. me and mel ran the way to bk to grab some drink.. i was DEHYRATED.. totally! ran back to meet linus and his bro.. went into the stadium at ard 6 something... we were quite lucky.. standing quite in the front of the stage... knew 2 gals there... kathy and tess.. they are damn corny.. esp tess... and they are only 13.. hahah.. forgot which one was from auss and which one from NZ.. they cute little gals! hahah... anyway.. saw all the stars there~ SIMPLE PLAN totally ROX!!! saw them quite up close!!! so cute!! took some photos of them.. but was quite blur since it was taken with camera phone... everyone was rocking and singing to them... LOVE THEM GUYS totally!!! was really enjoying myslf... the whole thing was okie.. black eyed peas come on at the ending and they were soooooooooooooo soooooooooooo sooooooooooooo darn cOOL! went to squeeze in front and could tell tat everyone was really enjoying themselves... i juz can't believe tat i actually stood for 8 plus hours today WITHOUT sitting.. hahah.. i m so crazy... came out of the stadium and all of us walked to the wrong place and ended up walking one whole round.. went to some club to get some drinks and went home after tat... sooooo fun! never enjoy so much fun since dunno when... today totally rox! even though i got no dates for tis vdae.. haiz... but who cares i got 5 dates with me today! mel, linus, linus's bro, kathy and tess.. not forgetting all the STARS over there where i can feast my eyes on!!! how much more could i ask for???? 14th feb 2004~ TOTALLY ROX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)

sobs.. its so funny i wanna cry~

2004-02-13T22:42:00.001+08:00

today had a great day.. all the prezzies, hugs and all with my frens.. well.. i tok to him today finally.. all thanks to who else? vanessa, alina and erman.. dotz.. haha.. they ah... i came out of the toilet with wennie oni to find alina and vanessa standing in the quad near the canteen.. and vanessa was like "eh! he's there! quick go give him now!" and i was like" dunwan lahz.. i dun even noe him! he oso neber tok to me b4.. haha.. so weird to give him.." the next thing i noe is tat alina shoved 8 hersheys chocs into my hand and asked me go give them to him.. i din want to give.. so embarrassing.. haha.. den erman came along and soon as usual kapo a bit and asked him OVER to OUR side.. i was like "shit! wat the hell! wat m i supposed to do?" was feeling damn embarrassed at the moment he came over... he dUN EVEN NOE ME! and here i m.. giving him things.. on vdae.. wat is tis? "OUT OF POINT" is wat i would use to describe tis whole thingy... anyways.. gave 3 to him 3 to his fren.. so lame.. arghh.. den vanessa asked him" eh u noe wats her name(refering to me)?" .. "erm ya.. i noe.. mingfang.." i was ready to kill myself! hahah.. but come to tink of it now.. i tink its pretty funny.. haha.. anyway... wanted to give something i made myself.. so went up to his fren and i was like totally screwed things up.. like some loser like tat... "part 2?" tat was wat i said to his fren for the heart shape thingy i made... and i gave it to him oso.. haha.. so lame..
anyway skipped class after break.. and found out tat the whole class pon GP except for our DEAR irene! hahah she was alone in the class facing ms wong! hahah.. the chi and the tamils were in the library.. while the malay gals went to crash econs lect.. hehe.. poor irene.. but nvm.. guess she enjoyed it! one-on-one! such rare opportunity.. haha.. stayed in the toilet b4 realising tat we(me,alina,vanessa,wennie) could actually go to the library.. hide upstairs with some grp of acs guys and val.. librarian came up once.. john paul was LOUD.. yup. loud. anyway went to town with alina and vanessa after tat.. we were on the bus 77 at the stop near rainbow gardens.. he was there at the bus stop. vanessa was pointing at him which seems like poking the window and went "hey! he's there! wave byebye to him! he's looking at you! say byebye!".. haha.. i din wave.. but vanessa was really funny.. hahah.. went scotts to eat.. den vanessa went off to cj for her "detention' hehe.. alina went home..
roamed ard far east for a while b4 meeting mel and her "fren"... toked for a while b4 going to nafa to meet ruth.. nafa building is soooo olddddddddd.. ancient.. haha.. but it had a very classic feeling... arty feeling.. so i guessed it was alright.. mum fetched me home after tat... ^sorry mummy! for losing temper at u juz now! din mean it~^ today was a greatttttttttt day.. and shocked everyone with my new hairstyle! haha.. but most credits goes to vanessa! and not forgetting alina! who provided most of the laughter! heheh... oh ya.. thanx mel too! hahha -who will be my date tomorrow?.......-

too long.. far too long...

2004-02-12T12:11:00.000+08:00

haven't been blogging these few days.. dun understand why but i m feeling damn tired these few days... mentally and physically.. been sleeping a lot these days.. sometimes juz wanna take a long break.. lost my file.. crapx.. aiya.. dun care.. hope its in some rubbish bin or wat.. arghhh.. dun feel like blogging anymore.. feel so sad all of a sudden.. frustration... ya.. vdae is approaching.. and no dates! haha.. haiz.. thot tis yr would be different.. thot he would be there for 3 major events since the start of the yr with me.. new yr.. my birthday.. and.. vdae.. hahah.. but.. none of it he was there...i guessed tats life.. new one will only come when the old one goes.. lost my file... so wat new thing will come? my mum said tat tis yr will be a good yr for me...up till now.. i dun tink so.. its kind of screwed up for me.. hmmm.. gonna cut hair later on... maybe tats a new start for me.. cut away all my bad luck.. haha.. yeah~ yup.. -dun wanna be lonely on vdae...-

woOooo~ brand new day!

2004-02-08T23:29:00.000+08:00

hmmm... waiting for paul goh to finish installing java so as to play yahoo pool.. so decided to blog a bit... wasn't really an exciting day as i would call my "sundays" to be.. woke up at 11 to watch justice league and spiderman.. nothing to do so watched some spies cartoon and lizzie mcguire.. not bad though.. den read some econs while listening to simple plan.. watched a bit of flintstone and den here.. hahah.. anyway.. when he came online.. i juz clicked on him.. and juz started toking.. i guessed i m okie with it.. maybe partly becoz today i m in a good mood.. i managed to really joke ard with him.. although his responses weren't really tat funny.. he was serious.. nvm.. it takes time! heheh.. i feel so cool today! even though i m like sweating now.. hahha.. hmmm. paul goh left the game.. 1st timer at it.. so i dun blame him.. hehe.. things need time!
anyway.. went to the zodiac webby juz now.. and got some pretty interesting stuff which are quite true!

plus side of me.
It doesn't matter if people are short, tall, rich, poor, or from the other end of the globe - you love your friends for who they are on the inside. You believe in peace and that everyone should get along so you will go the extra mile to help settle an argument. You are very creative, inventive and you take a unique approach to living your life. Many of your friends call you a true original!

flip side of me.
You, Airy Aquarius, sometimes get swept away with your troubles! You often feel that your problems are more important than anything else in the world, so your feelings get hurt if a friend can't be there for you like you expect. You also tend to question your decisions and can lack self-confidence when suggesting something new. You have so many great ideas - make sure you share them!

those which all in bold are totally true.. gasp! does our star sign really got anything to do with our life or character? its so Cool! shall go and research more on tis... heheh.. okie.. enuff.. gp on its way!~~~

frens no more?

2004-02-07T23:21:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. another boring day today.. woke up in the morning to watch spongebob.. whom as usual damn freaking lame.. haha.. den fiddle ard with the blog and took an afternoon nap.. pig huh? dunno why i m so tired oso.. decided to blog since missing one.. anyway.. juz added music to my blog.. "perfect" by simple plan simply ROX!!!.. hehe.. anyway went to fajar(somewhere in bukit panjang) with my parents to have dinner.. den came home to do TIS.. hmm.. so boring day.. anyway.. guessed he lied to me again.. he said tat he wun be free today the night he called me to tell me he can't make it on 05/02... becoz of some steamboat thing with either 70 or izzit 200 ppl at marina.. i asked jacky.. no such thing according to him.. okie.. maybe its ajband stuff.. so i asked joyce.. no such thing either.. she was at her frens house doing project.. totally sux man.. why did he have to lie to me? juz tell me the truth.. tat maybe he din want to go out.. which sets me wondering off again... do frens do tis to each other?.. if he did tis on purpose.. i guessed the signal is pretty damn clear... he din want to be frens.. so much so for the "i tink we can be very good frens..." lie.. its all a LIE!.. i hate ppl lying to me... guessed i m gonna juz cool tis crap off for a long time.. why shud i even bother anymore.. if tats wat he wants.. no more frens? i can't do tis anymore.. its seriously tiring me out.. forget forget and forget.. -i'm sorry i can't be perfect...-

tireD~

2004-02-05T23:07:00.000+08:00

today wasn't really a GREAT bday... it was kind of sucky.. headache 1st thing in the morning after a misunderstanding with some ppl.. really felt damn sucky.. den went to NP with mel, alina, vanessa, sally and sheila after sch.. hot and sticky.. hmmm.. den met up with wennie, erman and clarence.. saw marc at NP.. he still looks as hamster as ever.. hahah.. anyway went to paradigm to play pool after tat.. met up with qianyi and shuyu there.. he din turn up.. which was kind of expected.. joyce was like "if he like tat say no time muz do a lot of things den i oso shud have no time oso wah.." damn freaking sad leh.. hate it when things are like so shitty..
he's like being so mean.. to me. and so nice to other ppl.. not so nice lah.. but at least better.. wanted to ask him "do u dare admit tat u treat me the same way u treat ur classmates and OG members?" i seriously doubt so.. told myself to forget abt him.. but i get damn upset and pissed off at the fact tat we aren't even like frens... i love my frens very much.. but seriously i m getting damn tired becoz of him.. dun feel happy everyday i wake up... coz it always comes back to me the moment my mind is awake.. tired.TIRED.TIRED.. i tried my best in making everyone happy.. "tis is juz shit. isn't it?".. lets juz pray tat things will be better.. PLS....
anyway.. shermaine, carlyn, zz and jacky arrived later.. and paul goh was actually there.. saw him.. SO CUTE! haha.. but he left soon after reaching.. had a few games with them.. qianyi was doing well considering it was her 1st time at pool.. haha.. we all called it "TYCO luck". haha. went to yoshi to eat. ruth and amanda came along.. den went to swensens to eat ice cream.. they bought a "firehouse" for me.. so sWEET of them.. haha.. anyway was feeling damn shagged on the way home den hastily juz cut up the bday cake at home and went to slp soon after tis.. seriously.. juz hope tat 17 will mark a new beginning for me.. i want to be HAPPY!~

17 sOon~~~

2004-02-04T22:24:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. was stoning in front of comp.. den decided to blog.. today wasn't really tat tiring.. went to sch den went town with mel to meet her cousin, Natalie.. whom btw is DAMN CHIO!!! hahah.. yup.. den went to wisma to meet up with ruth.. she bought tis ripcurl wallet($24) as my bday prezzie.. wanted to buy the billabong one.. but out of stock.. so had to settle for ripcurl.. its quite nice oso.. oh ya.. ben goh oso paid for it.. haha.. went to SASA and took a perfume sample of ESCADA.magnetic beat.. damn nice! so sweET~ hehe.. anyway.. juz one and a half hrs till my bdae.. can't believe it man.. so fast leh.. but i hope being 17 would be nicer... 16 was quite a whole sucky experience for me.. horrible.. haha.. hope by the time it ticks 12.00am 05/02/2004.. i can be.. HAPPIER, MORE CONFIDENT of myself, WUN SCREW UP my life so often, have LOTS of FRENS who care abt me! not tat tis bunch of frens are bad or wat.. i wish tat MY FRENS are HAPPY too! happy everyday... hurts me to see them sad.. ="""( maybe... i find tat SPECIAL somebody... nah.. tat SPECIAL somebody will come and find me instead... heheh.. =P any way will do.. haha.. seriously.. juz hope to be a happier person.. wun be such a pathetic person living in misery everyday... and my frens are happy with me.. dun exactly like silence... yup. and wish tat i can go ENGLAND! watch lfc in action!! hehe.. good health.. happy and healthy family!~~~ ANYONE WHOM I HAVE OFFENDED IN A WAY OR ANOTHER.. pls FORGIVE ME~~~ hmmm.. ya.. and bring me closer to god~~~ HAPPY advanced BDAY to ME! -17 candles flickering... -